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You knock me off of my feet now baybeh. oooh!

2009-07-20T06:42:00.000-07:00

I WANT TO UPLOAD PICTURES BUT MY STUPID PHONE WONT SEND. ARGHH!

Spent the whole afternoon with Diva. She's so awesome. Love her to bits! Karish and Vashti too okay. V is so cool, my twinnn ;D whoooo~~

I am sick and tired of your hot&cold-ness.

RACIAL HARMONY DAY TOMORROW OH MY GOG!

Yellow ain't replying okay. Not online either.

Fugging Bitch,

Obsessed.

2009-07-19T04:21:00.000-07:00

You outta breath?

Hope you aint waiting.

I'm having an issue. A very very big issue. I don't think I'm ready to.... snowboard. And yet, i want to do it. I've got like alot of choices of snowboards. I'm 100% sure i can get this snowboard. Its, yellow. Then there's this other snowboard. Its White. I think I can get it, but only 70%. Then there these other snowboards. I think four more. This Red one is kinda outta my leauge, but it seems promising! This Orange one seems available, though I'm pretty sure someone wants it. Then this Blue one, its kinda off and on lah. Like, not my hottest choice. And then there's this other snowboard, that i could really just suddenly want at weird moments. Ah geez! Thing is, the yellow one is damn awesome lah. But, I'm not ready to snowboard just yet, and i don't know the other snowboards potential. Damn lah, full of choices life is. Snowboarding. pfft.

How do you tell someone indirectly:

"You've gotta work for it if you want it. I'm gonna hold back, but you've gotta push"

Cuz some people just expect you to come around. It is ANNOYING.

Went to Arab street today! :D Watched my friend DIVA, perform yes that is her real name. :D Childhood buddie! She's cool okay. After school tmr I'm hanging out with her. Yay-ness!

~~I have racial harmony on Tuesday. I'm using Vithya's saree again :D I have to send my baju kebaya to her tomorrow after school =.= Geez. 901 bus.~~ HAHA. I wanna go to Bedok again. by bus of course. I reaally don't enjoy MRT rides anymore.

Okay, Vithya just picked it up. :D

I swear, I wish I'd never kissed that frog.

Since forever,

2009-07-16T04:34:00.000-07:00

Alright, so here i am again after one month or so :D weee~

Life, the usual ups and downs alot of neutrals but better than down right? Was supposed to go to school today and meet MGY and some others at coffee shop at 6.30 but something came up, i went back to sleep and woke up at 11. More nagging. Tsk, i wish i could tell them to just STFU and leave me alone. Gee, how wonderful life would be if i could.

Love, I'm forever scratching out that word okay. The person i really fall in love with if i just have to, now that will have to be one heck of a guy. Because really, the last time i let myself love got my heart broken into a million and 3 pieces. Lets not make it four. But i do know i love Nis, HAHA alot ok, as her "boyfriend" its my responsibility (?!?!) hahaha okay, i sound so les.

I'm leaving very soon. Off to KL next week maybe. Depends when the school wants me in. They said 27th if they accept soon. :O Oh my Ooh my. So fast lah please. I'm really ecstatic to go to KL, but not to leave SG. Yannow what i mean? Gee!

Was watching videos with dad. Stupid pantene commercial lah walao. ahaha and like, these two videos are of people who died? It was so damn scary ok.

I went to STC. :D it was awesome, HAHA i shall not elaborate.

This is just like, I swear, i'm not going to fall in love.

Finally

2009-07-15T22:35:00.000-07:00

I'm updating my blog now okay :) After a million years, yes yes finally :D

will update again tonight, nothing happened yet. haha :P

changed feelings.

2009-05-18T04:56:00.000-07:00

I wrote a whole story here, and just got so irritated, that i'm deleting it. I've lost my mood to blog.

BYE.

Stereotypes.

2009-05-17T00:12:00.000-07:00

Don't talk to me about emo. Its so sick lah. Emo is a short for emotional. Emo isn't a stereotype. Just cuz someone has black hair, doesn't mean they're emo. Just cuz someone wears alot of eyeliner doesn't mean their emo. Just cuz someone listens to "emo" music like Mayday Parade, doesn't make them emo. Just cuz someone cuts themselves, it really really doesn't make them emo. Someone who is depressed and insecure who will cry at the most sensitive of issues, is an emo-tional person. Not an emo. The only emo's out there are the ones who put pictures of themselves on the net calling themselves emo. Just cuz one bitch is a scene kid who claims to be emo, doesn't make all those who have black hair, tons of eyeliner or those who slit their wrists "emo"

Also, don't talk to me about people changing sexuality due to trends. Also don't talk to me about how sick it is. Cuz its not. How would you feel if all your life the opposite sex just always takes advantage of you? That they never satisfy you emotionally/sexually (its a fact) or keep trying to get you for something else other than you. You will OBVIOUSLY get frustrated. And OBVIOUSLY hate the whole kind of that gender and trust yourself in your own kind. Its about personal preferences and situations. Not about trends. No need to go around saying ew. Its not about desperate either. MAYBE sometimes it is. But only sometimes.

I can't stand stereotypes.

Cuz it can change your perception on someone.

If i start wearing thick eyeliner, and you call me emo,

won't that make people think i am?

Its stupid. Its annoying.

sleepy ==zzzz

2009-05-16T17:52:00.000-07:00

I am groggy and tired and can barely open my eyes. Am supposed to be asleep or riding but i miss my boyfriend soso much lah please. And its too early. I only slept at 2.30 cuz ulut came over till one for a looooong chat. Yeah... Currently waiting for Danial to get out of the shower. URGH i miss him. ALOT. Dyinggggggg.

Managed to go out yesterday. Got my stuff, not clothes though. But ended up fighting with parents. Mom lost all hope in me, dad trying to prove me wrong. Fuck my parents. Fuck my family. This is so fucking fucked up.

You see, right now the internet is off, and i'm just typing and waiting for it to be turned on again. Because for fuck-sake, its a fucking Sunday, theres no fucking thing to do on a fucking day like this except go online, read a book, or play sports.

Online; Mom took modem =.=

Reading?; Out of books

Play Sports; Its too fucking hot.

Urgh. I have to stop swearing. This sucks. GAH!

Started post at 9.15, internet off-ed at 9.20. Argue with mom till 10, Told dad mom is being such a pain in the ass at 10.30, they argued till now. I hate my mom.

Danial, I hate this "holiday"

I wanna go back to school!

I wanna go out.

2009-05-16T02:50:00.000-07:00

I wanna go out.

My boyfriend is out with thomas and gang.

Danial, I hate you.

*jealously*

URGH bloody hell. I'm in such a freaking bad mood now.

I NEED TO GO OUT FOR FREAKS SAKE.

ARGHSDKJBKSB.

=.=

Saturdayshitday

2009-05-15T20:47:00.000-07:00

I NEED TO SHOP!

come online. sooner or later puh-leseee!

So bored. So bored.

heho!

2009-05-15T05:51:00.000-07:00

Exams are over, like finally please! whoo~ Still high on so manymany things. But i CAN type a decent paragraph or two about today. ;D

Don't you just hate it, when people who usually tell you everything suddenly just tell you somethings and not everything. Its freaking frustrating.

Thomas loved his birthday pressie! I could tell from the look on his face when he saw it in the plastic bag ;D Followed by a scream. hahaha! Today was last paper ok. I lost 16 marks cuz i didn't know how to do and didn't have the time to :( Ah wells, its over. thats all that matters.

Off to CWP with Nat,Syl and ValVal. XD hee! I LOVE CALAMINE LOTION AND BETADINE! =D ahahahahahahah life savers. Went to eat pizza with Nat and Syl after Val had to ciao. We talked about ghosts? haha LMAO. Hawaiian pizza with alotalot of pharmesan cheese is awesomeee heho! SORRY NAT FOR THE GORE. I SHALL NEVER OPEN MY GORSE IN FRONT OF YOU EVER AGAIN. heho! I totally ditched Josh. HAHA -.- Faris wanted to chill. So, Nat, Faris and I were off to Starbucks. hehe! Had our Datin-Datin convey, haha! lols. Faris wanted to see my baby, who was busy playing badminton at Marsiling CC. =.= BAIK PERRR.

at 2, walked arnd with Nat for about 30mins, looking for Bangpires' pressie and card. Which we found ;D hahaha. then at 2.30 off to find my babylove. heheheheh! Cutie!! He was with his clique. As usual, ahah! awesome people. Alot of talking that involved bodyparts. LOL. halfway through the day, was pure bliss i tell you. whooo~ so high man. Like a drug. oh em geee! Its nice to know that the simple things you give, is like him giving me his world. :)

"L... is for the way you look, at mee" *with supersexy voice* MILZ, DIAN IF YOUR READING THIS, PLEASE IMAGINE AND LAUGH. ;D

heho! I wanna stock up on hoodies and long sleeves! Urgh, need to shop. NEED. TO. SHOP. =.=

I'm out of alot of stuff. Shampoo, Body Soap, Facial Wash, Acne cream, Moisturizer, and a hella lot more =.= I need to go out. I need to shop for my stuff. I NEED to leave the house sia. I NEED MY STUFF. STEWPID STEWPID. GAH.

I still hate Maths. I did okay for paper 1, and screwed up for paper 2.

I love my boyfriend alot ok. He helped me with my maths, and I'm VERY thankful for that, so baby, I just wanna say thanks for being such awesome support. You've helped me in maths alot and I just HAVE to give you a big hug for that. If i PASS my Maths this term, I swear, I will give you a hug. Aside from maths, thanks soo much for support on that issue of mine. Although sometimes i did it cause of you, you were there for me to lean on, and that is seriously something i needed. I love you, alot.

Also, MGY is awesome. Though other little, minor (yes val, my left arm is minor,) stuff came up. HOHO.

I am at the point, where i'm so high, so happy and not afraid to say;

I'm HIS girl ;D

shalalala! heho!

ciaoxz people.

ilovemyboyfriend.

FREEDOM!!!!!

2009-05-15T05:20:00.000-07:00

I hearby declare,

TOTAL FREEDOM FROM EXAMS.

for a few weeks. ha!

WHOOOO~~ exams are over. Today was awesome. Super awesome.

yes baby, you are warm.

VERY warm.

and i just love you to bits.

come back online lah! =.=

HEHOHEHO! I'm highhhh. I love calamine lotion ;D hahahahahahha and betadine! and gorses! hahahahahahhaha =.= high now. expect a proper post later/tmr ;D

NO EXAMS.

WOOT!

Guilt.

2009-05-14T06:12:00.000-07:00

I want to,

I need to,

But you make me feel so bad doing so.

The cold shiny metal on my skin.

The crimson red water slowly escaping.

Its all a sin.

A pleasurable sin.

Its not easy letting go of this.

It never will be.

I love you.

But I love the scars because of you too.

I know i'm a bitch to do so.

But its not that easy.

I am guilty.

But its just so hard.

Thomas;

2009-05-14T01:18:00.000-07:00

Happy birthday my dear bitch/niece,

May god bless you.

May the sky not fall on you,

May all the bruises i gave you heal faster.

I don't care if you swap dates with her,

14th of May is your day,

for all i care....

So enjoy being 15.

(WOW YOUR SO OLD!)

Because your not 14 like me! :P

(hehehoho!)

I'll explain to you why pur-pur ca-re rater. hahaha =.=

Eh! tmr the box of .......... HAHA! better come early. ;D

Heho! excited.

Class blog is damn cute i tell you. Love it soso much. heho! btw, happy birthday thomas, again. My lil bitch/niece. hehe. MGY sempat seyh. " *cough*danial*cough*" i mean whats that all about? Why have to cough about Danial?? haha. tsk, immaature ;X

Watching Angels and Demons with Sylvia and pepos tmr hopefully. Josh offered, but hey. I'm booked ;D good news for baby. HAHA. what a fucker i am.

Today's paper was pure shit. Worst case scenario is that i lose 13 marks. Best case is that I lose only 5 out of 50. hohohehehaha! =.=

After Physics causeway-ed with Sylv. We ended up talking about that asshole. eyerrr wasting time sia. Walk walk, talk cock. I followed Laura for a lil while, then off on my own to look for Thomas's and Aryl's presents. ;D I suck at birthday shopping. Thought of getting him a shirt, dogtags.... a notebook? haha! Found something suitable with the help of baby and gang ;D thankiewsss! My lovelorn-ing partner is so cute. hahaha. stop molesting my boyfriend can...?

Wells, back to story. Was with Baby and evryone outside Xcraft waiting for Aryl's taggies to be done, and saw chihao. My teddy bear! ;D He told me about the whole accusation for stealing story. haha he's got 12 bands like me, but split between two ppl. heho! I'm an inspiration ;D haha. kay, right. So all the guys were like, "eyy you chee how the head councillor right" *laugh*laugh* so mean :( haha then I was like, "eh! don't kacau my teddybear!" then i WANTED to give him a hug. HAHA but somebody was already SOOO jealous. i could see this green substance in his eyes. ;) haha paham paham lah Dan. funfun day. ;D got all my pressies and cards. can't wait for tmr. heho!

This is so stupid, I saw him just 3 hours ago, and i miss my baby alot ok. Stewpid shayt. Haha! your eyes, still melt me, still make me want to be yours...

hehehahahoho!

sugarhigh.

I'm leaving you...

2009-05-13T05:33:00.000-07:00

I'm leaving you

I'm not sure if that’s what I should do

It hurts so bad

I'm wanting you but can't go back

Trying to find, to find

That all elusive piece of mind

Stuck here somehow

Shrouded beneath my fear

And now I don’t need it

Cuz I'm walkin down this road alone and figured all I'm thinking bout is you, is you my love

And my head is in a cloud of rain and the world it seems so far away and I'm just waiting for

The droplets, droplets

You left a mark

I wear it proudly on my chest

Above my heart Above my heart

To Remind me that I feel the best

When I'm with you When I'm with you

To me everything is effortless

You know it's true

My eyes are painted with regret and I don’t need it

Cuz I'm walkin down this road alone and figured all I'm thinking bout is you, is you my love

And my head is in a cloud of rain and the world it seems so far away and I'm just waiting to fall and sink into your tears

You both are like the raindrops, the raindrops falling down on me

You left a mark you left a mark

He left a mark you left

He left you left

And I don’t I don’t

Need it. Need it

if you guys are smart enough, you'll know who you are :)

so similar, maybe thats why.

Eat you up.

2009-05-13T01:20:00.000-07:00

CHEM WAS A FAILUREEEE!!

boohoo :(

I want physics marks to be high so it can keep an A for me.

Boo Chem.

Boo maths.

Boo DnT.

Stewpid.

Todayy was awesomeeeeeee!

Okay, all the drama started this morning. heho! So anyways, I got this guy, Josh, no not my instructor Josh, his number. Like he's cute and everything ;D green eyes! So anyways, I was texting him. At like, 5.30? he texted me something really cute. I was like awww. And we kept texting till i met baby, (heho!) wells, even after. someone seemed jealous. Hehehe, ah wells. Boys. Managed to study a lil chemistry. Next time before exams must meet up with Josh for chem ;D Chemistry exam was a bigbig boo. :( went to causeway with Valval and Nat. heho! Bought bubble tea. Met Sylvia, Laura and Devika. And some bitch sneezed on my neck and sylvia's ear. so disgusting. We all were like "swine fluu" haha =.= what a day, what a day.

Went to send Valval back, and then off to library to find Syl and gang trying to finish the bubble tea. awww! wells, Devika smuggled it and i went off to wait for Aryl ;D His "10 mins" is like 30 half an hour siaaaaa =.= Wells, finally turned up at 11-ish and ate MAC. ;D we talked and talked and eat and eat till 1-something? at 12 I was like, wondering what time baby's exam would finish. haha so sad. Aryl and I were talking bout the Convent-SIGS brawl. haahahha! and about relationships and possesive people. eee, scary man if i have a possesive boyfriend. eeee!

So we took off to go and walk walk around causeway. HAHA. talk talk. I miss him lots man! So happy that after idk how many months of postponing, we finally, got to meet up. I still owe him a B'day present though. gahh. Went up to the cinema to look for movies. HAHA. so funny. Talking about Super Junior and what...? (Korea rocks. fullstop) soo saw baby, and boyfriend met godbro. haha, feedback was very entertaining. ;D this only means one thing, wear your bball shoes, or grow! hahaha -.- awww, didn't mean it though. Went down to send him off, we took stupid pictures. AHHAHA damn stupid i tell yeh. Not uploading. hahaha. Wells, went back up with him -,-! haha then off to cling (WTF) onto boyfriend. heee~ pleasant pleasant day indeed. Oh yesh, gave baby a substitute. hehehehe! not molest :P

baby, ily alot suddenly. ha!

BoA-"I'll eat you up"

*winkwink*

Trying to forget.

2009-05-12T01:11:00.000-07:00

Talleyhoos~

Today was fun fun fun ;D I love today's test. Maths though, I still hate it! ;D Cuz i spent 1 hr 30 mins to do questions i did know, and the last 30 mins on the few i didn't know. From a gurantee of losing minimum 22 marks, went down to 5. Am pretty proud of myself. shalalala~

Aryl didn't pick up his phone OR reply my texts. Pffft! so I went CWP with my Bangpire, Nat and my consortium (HAHA!) to find no one there. Wanted to get my bands with sylvia, but the place was closed. =.= then decided go have lunch with boyfriend. heho. And Aryl, if your reading this, NEXT TIME YOU BLANJA ME AH! ;D hehoha! =.=

Hung around causeway with boyfriend and gang. Yes, thats how bored i was. Went to library and Thomas got mad suddenly :( aww! ahhh wells, exam stress i guess. Chill out kay dude ;D I felt so extra lah, for some reason. ahh wells. But i managed to get my bands though ;D so i think i've got about 12 on my arm weee~ Questions will arise, but its easier to answer don't you think? ;D

Homed with MAC for lunch. Pretty boring day. Except for the Maths test. Weeee~ I might actually pass! WHOOHOOO! haha, at least I can be happy about something huh, Danial. =.=

"Because I am a fool
The only thing I think about is you
But I know that you are thinking about somebody else
And you probably don’t even know my heart"

Thats how i feel you know. And its not a nice feeling.

You and Syafiq, quite similar.

Maybe THAT is why i liked you in the first place.

See how it feels now.

If you know whats wrong, why didn't you try to fix it first?

Because my heart isn't some stupid toy.

I would have waited.

Its not like i don't know what you went through.

I liked someone in the mist of still not getting over him,

yet i told that person i'm not ready, and it might just be a desperate crush.

so i WAITED and WAITED and more blood came out,

but I'm over him.

If you told me to WAIT, i would have.

I'm sorry lavania screwed the "take it slow" idea

I'm sorry I just went on with the idea.

but it would have been nice for me to know.

All i want is you, I really do.

I'm willing to wait again,

because i want to make it work.

I'm not telling you in your face,

because i want you to read this over and over;

"Its not a crush. I want you. Yes, you. You asked me "I wonder how long it will take for you to get over me when I break your heart" You've broken it,lets see how long it takes ok? I'm stupid enough to give you a second chance, the way i gave it to him. I wonder how people can just live without the guilt of what they're doing. I love you, and that wont change, until it comes out with all the blood i'll lose."

Dentures. =.=!

2009-05-10T23:26:00.000-07:00

I WEAR BRACERS.

NOT DENTURES.

Kimakkk.

There is a DISTINCT difference between the two of them ok. =.=

Today is boooring! Gah. Internet restrictions suck big time. I need to get a life. Bah, Danial is online. Yippieee! hooray hooray! =.= Finally sia.

Bracers, not dentures, appointment at 4. What colour should i get? Red&&Black maybe? HAHA ew no, so emo. but, wells, might as well ehs? and I shall get that emo haircut and wear tight clothing and black skinnies. =.=! Ok. no never never.

I hate these people who are renovating my house. They're like at my window. Stupid perverts. And mommy doesn't let me close the curtains? CHEEEESEPIE.

Oh! come to think of it, it isn't THAT boring. Made brownies just now ;D so chewy and niceeee! The best way to fight a lazy afternoon is; Brownies, a glass of Champagne, and a book ;DDD hahaha.

[edit] Something is up with you people and Minah Malaysia's ok. =.= eyerrrrrr.[/edit]

;D

2009-05-10T19:32:00.001-07:00

Morrrrning people!

I want to PROMISE that my blog will be updated often now. ;D

I need a reason to stay alive.

Motha's Day.

2009-05-10T04:28:00.000-07:00

Dear Momma,

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY MOMMA!

because today is your special day I didn't tell you what a pain you were to me.

I swear you drive me up the wall 24/7 and all i want is peace from you.

I didn't get you a present because you nagged me because i woke up at 12.45,

I've been getting up at 4am everyday and woke up at 7.45 yesterday.

I needed my sleep. Yet you still nagged.

oh wells, there went your present.

I planned to go to CS with poppa and buy the;

WILD CHERRY™ package worth RM339

from THEBODYSHOP™

So now you know, nagging doesn't help.

LOTSA LOVE,

Alicia

Call me mean/heartless/wdv, I don't really give a shit right now. Just because its mothers day doesn't mean she isn't a bitch. I gave her a hug in the morning and wished her happy mothers day despite her mouth, which said;

"You from being a vet into a actress. Hopeless already lah. Your a bloody disgrace. Does god really hate me enough to give me such a failure of a daughter."

It really does hurt, you know, yet I still listen to you sometimes. I still call you my mom, I still love you alot ok. So what if I like my fashion a lil mix of punk-boho? so what if my bangs are long? so what if i'm not miss perfectionist? Everyone is different. I'm NOT you. Remember that please. If you don't like my room, don't come into it. Its my mothafucking life you bitch.

And you daddy, its MY life. who gives a shit if its your roof? I can just pack my bags and stay with someone in SG. I love you, thats why I stay. But your just so, URGH!

Today was a very interesting day. My hate level for my parents went up. I'm really so tempted to just packing my bags and running away you know. Bitches.

Danial isn't online. Well, he is, but he's away. Gah.

I mugged for maths. I'm such a loser at maths. I can't understand it. I mean, I know the technique, just how the fuck do i mix it with the others and apply it? I fucking HATE HATE HATE MATH. I'm gonna fail on Tuesday. And my dad will see the results. And he will say I never study. If only he knew, if i were to stress myself on math. If only he knew, what would happen. And baby, yeah it happened again, cuz i mugged. sorry.

Trimmed my hair. I don't really like it. :( stupid hair controversy. UGH. I trim, don't like. I don't trim, don't like. WHAT YOU WANT ME TO DO LAH FATHER? CUT BOTAK? I"M A GIRL FOR GODS SAKE.

Hand hurts. Gah. I hate piano too. Exams on the 16th of June. Premier cup on the 18th. I need to settle stuff. ARGH. Stress stress stress. Stupid exam period. Stupid school, stupid math.

I like Super Junior. ;D they're so awesome. Also SS501. They're cool too. And I love the song "more than words" the Frankie J version the most. Also "hush hush" by PCD.

" I never needed you to be strong, I never needed you for pointing out my wrongs, I never needed pain, I never needed strain. My love for you was strong enough you should've known. I never needed you for judgement, I never needed you to question what i do. I never asked for help, I take care of myself." Get that in your head mother.

ARGH. SO IRRITATING LAH.

wanna cut. need to cut. I WANT MY FREAKING PENKNIVES! :'(

Give em' back! :(

Prt. 2

2009-05-09T07:39:00.000-07:00

I hate it when people take their time to answer something damn important.

I hate it even more when people don't see the importance no matter how many times i tell them.

if a breakup is what you want.

I'm gonna wait till the "Danial" on my hand goes away/

I want us to go on.

REAL BAD.

Life sucks when it comes to such tragic endings.

No matter what though, I'll always love you.

THOMAS! I'll still be able to play BB with you right? ;D

Saturday.

2009-05-09T05:10:00.001-07:00

You know what sucks more than waking up at 4am every day?

Waking up at 7.45 on a Saturday.

You know why I woke up at 7.45 on a Saturday?

cuz i had date at 11. ;D

With who?

my babylove of course. XD

Who's my babylove?

Oh, more songs that are true;

Because I am a fool
The only thing I think about is you
But I know that you are thinking about somebody else
And you probably don’t even know my heart

I probably don’t exist in your daily life
And I’m sure you have no thoughts of me
But for me, I spend my days thinking about you
And my tears keep falling

Just looking at your retreating figure
Is happiness to me
Even if you don’t know my feelings
Even if you simply brush me aside

CHORUS:
In those days when I desperately want to see you
Those days that are so hard to bear
My mouth wordlessly repeats “I love you”
Alone once again I cry for you
Alone once again I’m missing you
Baby I love you
I’m waiting for you

I probably don’t exist in your daily life
And I’m sure you have no memories of me
But for me, I spend my days thinking about you
And create my own memories

For me
Love is a beautiful scar
Even when I see your beautiful smile
I cannot smile with you

CHORUS:
In those days when all I think about is you
Those days when my heart is cold and sad
My mouth wordlessly repeats “I want to see you”
Alone once again I cry for you
Alone once again I’m missing you
Baby I love you
I’m waiting for you

Bye bye never say good bye
Even though I can never have you
I need you
I can’t say a word, I want you

I keep hoping and hoping
In those days when I desperately want to see you
Those days that are so hard to bear
My mouth wordlessly repeats “I love you”
Alone once again I cry for you
In those days when all I think about is you
Those days when my heart is cold and sad
My mouth wordlessly repeats “I want to see you”
Alone once again I cry for you
Alone once again I’m missing you
Baby I love you
I’m waiting for you

Haha, I can't express how much I love this song.

Korean/Jap bands are so awesome.

Something is up with you, and its hurting me terribly.

I still try to smile, plaster it on my face.

But its only for your sake, because things are happening.

they always have been.

Yet i can't seem to cope this time, and all i want is the truth.

Danial, please.

MGY, thanks ;D

Wells, today was so-so. Woke up at 7.45 to go for my dressage date (HAHA!?!) with Vivaldi of course. So yeahh, dressage was PURE shit. Lunch was interesting. haha, Josh is still orange as ever. HOHO. "superkicks!" HAHAHAHA. k, only some people know what I'm talking about. I couldn't eat my fried rice in peace. Everyone kept staring at me for some reason. Ugh, whatever. Had jumping at 2. There was an oxer! weeee~~ I love Tanja lots. ;D at least someone understands. My plasters had to be removed cuz i got a heat rash. gah! suckyy. You can see this white patch now on my skin. HAHA. I'm Malay again ;D Vivaldi was awesome over jumps. HEHO. I homed only like, 5 mins ago? HAHA. Ate ALOT there. The bill must be scary I swear. Now I've got mengaji. Ugh. Second post coming your way.

Baby, I need you.

Reden

2009-05-08T06:25:00.000-07:00

I like talking. I LOVEEE talking. Saves alot of heartache. ALOT.

that reminds me, ALOT isn't appropriate. ok must use "a large amount" ;)

MGY came online. I'm sooo happy. And heart keeps beating faster. Today got from worst to awesome. haha! enjoy enjoy. Malay paper was utter RUBBISH. Like, i was sooo sleepy. Due to lack of sleep from last night. My GayBitch knows why. :( Okay, this semester is like, crap semester. Top 5 in the level is outta my list this year :( AH wells, bad year bad year.

Once upon a time, I cried because of this person. Yes, I cried like alot. My eyes were red the next morning and i had to close them through my whole bus trip. They looked normal by the time I got to school and I managed to plaster a smile on my face. That person didn't even seem to care. And it hurt alot ok. ALOT. Its like, stewpid. If the person you "cared" about suddenly doesn't talk to you.... won't you like try your best to figure out why? boo. Thomas, I need your stupid jokes again.

"u know how he's like when u got into this

from what you've said

he doesn't seem like someone

whom likes to take the initiative in a relationship

or perhaps he doesn't really know what he should do at this moment

so it's not about him lacking passion

don't question him on that, too early for that now

tell him what you need

what he needs to do

to make u feel special"

1) tell me if your in pain

2)show me how much you care

3) let me slowly be yours.

Simple Stupidity.

2009-05-07T04:44:00.000-07:00

for some unkown reason,

and i do not want to know,

repeat; DO NOT,

want to know,

somebody is being a bitch.

I don't want this person to be a bitch,

REALLY. REALLY. REALLY.

If you terasa, then thats you.

yes you right there, reading this now.

YOUR THE BITCH THAT'S MAKING ME CRY.

did it sting? if it did, yeah thats you.

purpur is my suddenly loved colour. wedding dress colour. ;) HAHA val.

I hate my mom. She's been shouting the second she entered the house. ugh, shut up. bitch.

And something is up with B okay. like really. ugh, focus.

Exams exams. fuck lah. stupid social life, stupid school life, stupid love life. stupid life life lah kimak. =.= I want exams to be over. I want everything to just stop and go back to the way I want it to be. Call me spoilt, i AM. Got a problem with it? Too BAD. GAH.

Doesn't it hurt when your doing ALL the effort and you feel like you gotta drag that someone. Ah, whatever lah. I've got Malay tmr. Can't wait =.=

No one to go to school with at this rate. I pray nissy will go with me. Cuz you see, things happen, feelings shuffle and change.

Where's MGY when i need him sia =.=

nobody gonna love me betta,

i must stick with you forever..

pray pray.

although i don't.

Stewpid.

2009-05-07T02:20:00.000-07:00

I hate hate hate exam period.

Its so stewpid.

yes; STEWPID.

ARFG.

Doomsday.

2009-05-05T06:10:00.000-07:00

TOMORROW MYE. AHHHHHHHHHHH!

DieDieDieDie.

ah wells, english and malay.

won't die one.

*breathe*

I'm gonna do what I want to do. Cuz its MY life. NOT YOURS. I tell you what concerns you. As long as I'm not screwing up, no need for you to try and rotate the pieces. I know whats wrong and whats right. Isn't that enough? Be happy I don't smoke, drink or do drugs.

STOP CALLING THEM HDB KIDS BECAUSE AT LEAST THEY'RE MORE OPEN.

Who was the one to say "keep flexible. don't be rigid" LOOK WHOS TALKING LAH. I have a life in Singapore unlike YOU. LET ME LIVE IT CAN? Of course i say bad things about you. You tell me to listen when you yourself NEVER ATEMPT TO LISTEN TO ANYTHING I SAY. Nothing wrong with being in Singapore. If you miss me so much, convey it in a better manner. Compared to keeping me cooped up like some kinda bird.

The more you pull, the more I'll run, the STRONGER i get.

basic dressage.

I need to talk to Mr Yiu. Reaaaaaaaaaaaaally badly. I wish mid-years could wait.

Mayday Parade.

2009-04-30T07:14:00.000-07:00

"i swear that you don't have to go,"

I do, sorry baby.

I'd rather a scar to a thought,

scar to a thought,

scar to a thought.

three times more if you do.

because i'm a 70

70,

70.

Look me in the eye, and tell me you love me.

70-30

scar to a thought

FINALLY UPDATING LAH OK.

2009-04-29T06:34:00.000-07:00

MYE IS COMING AND IT SUCKS.

I know some people THINK that I'm so relaxed,

when I HAVE to be.

because they don't know the PSYCHO BITCH i turn into when i'm not.

Shall not elaborate.

Ilovemyboyfriendok?

Once upon a time, I kept texting in class, cuz I needed to take my mind off studies. Oh forget it. Explanations not needed.

Why am I so different when it comes to everything else?

IF ANY TEACHERS ARE READING THIS, DON"T HOLD IT AGAINST ME;

tmr i'm going to school to STUDY with my boyfriend ok.

and i will get GOOD MARKS for MATHS.

I PRAY,

AHHHHHH, I'm losing my mind lah please.

there is a REASON i rock in acting.

I like HAPPY, don't you?

ciaox.

P.S; ILY.

what hurts the most. was never knowing.

2009-04-17T05:16:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Mr Yiu.

ok, I love my form teacher lah k. The best FT everrrr.

ok, and I love my classmates ok. 2A rawks.

1)~~SYF~~

~~2)Celebration~~

3)Resignation

4)Partay

5) 1 year.

Have you ever wanted to prove yourself so badly, but no matter what you do, they don't believe you?

Have you ever desired a happy ending that you KNOW is impossible but you work your way to it and then it fails and you feel as if you never expected it?

Have you ever tried again, and when you fail again, it hurts twice as much?

Have you just poured your heart out twice in a lifespan of four months and got nothing but empty words in return?

Have you ever tried fixing something you KNOW you can't, but you still do it, with tears streaming down your face, and the frustration boiling up, you fumble with it even more, and you KNOW there is no answer, but you keep finding for it, its like a glass that fell and shattered into a million pieces, and your trying to glue them all together again and everything is just going wrong, but you still try because you ARE right and you wanna prove to yourself that you can do it?

Have you ever tried to be so strong, to prove to everyone you can endure all this shit, and the truth is you ARE strong, this is making you even stronger, but then the feeling of exhaustion is catching onto you and you need to lean on someone, but then there is no one there, and all that being strong seemed so worthless and you just break down and show everyone the weak little thing you are?

Can't my parents freaking listen to me?

Can't i freaking get over Syafiq???????

FUCK

I thought we could wait for the fireworks.

2009-04-16T05:49:00.000-07:00

Countdown:

1. ~~SYF~~

2. Party

3.Resignation

4.Peace&Zen for 24 hours

5. 1 year ;D

I'm like, so freaking tired lah please. I'm going to bed at 9.30 today. gah! can't take this. One down, 4 to go. today I wasn't really THAT excited. It was mixed feelings. I was VERY semangat this morning though, so yeah, counted as an excited day. After my excitement days, I've got Speech day. dayum. So today, SYF was awesome. We were so excited, though i cocked up my lines a lil at the end, it doesn't matter. After SYF I went to CWP with Juniors, Sylv, Dian and the phsyco emo shit-ass. i'm not gonna be nice. My darrrling son was so cute lah. ;) Oh wellies, got soo tired, so i went back. HAHA, I think i saw alfie? oh wdv. Went to SR and got that THANG we need for tomorrow. =D. I won't live through P.E. exhaustion much? Geog will be cool, chemistry will be boring. CDP, well thats a different issue.

I swear that you don't have to go, I thought we could wait for the fireworks.

I thought we could wait for the snow, to wash over georgia and kill the hurt.

I thought i could live in your arms, and spend every moment I had with you.

Stay up all night with the stars, and confess all the faith that I had in you.

Too late, i'm sure and lonely.

Another night, another dream wasted on you.

Taken for granted,

2009-04-15T07:07:00.000-07:00

I hate the human race, cuz we take SO many things for granted.

We really don't know what we got till its gone.

We THINK everything is fine,

and don't realize we're slipping until we fall and hit ourselves hard.

Hell yeah, ignorance is bliss.

But don't forget, the pain strikes harder that way.

your so freaking lucky lah, you get to at least talk and hang out with that person, and now you wanna complain? My place is NO WHERE better. Please think before you ask stupid questions and make IDIOTIC decisions. You don't know what its like to get over someone, and then get those wounds opened up again. You don't know how much it hurts to see that persons face during days when I truly do not want to see him. It hurts when your forced to make yourself believe everything is ok, when it so isn't. IGNORANCE IS BLISS. but if you fall, good luck.

No pain, no gain.

I've got the guts to let go, you keep saying you want to, but your not.

SYF is tomorrow, I'm so tired, Justin pissed me off to the apple core today.

Bitch.

My 3-day-excitement marathon has started.

muax

1. SYF

2. Partay&Resignation

3.One Year ;)

Class Bloggie.

2009-04-14T07:30:00.000-07:00

Yay, I L-O-V-E 2A.

haha, the blog is fabulous, so yeah thanks.

I'll try my best to update what I can, but oh wellies!

Today was tiring, the end. gosh.

syf is on thursday,

resignation&celebration on friday,

partay on saturday, and....

one year babeh ;)

"is it really just another crush?"

Octet,

2009-04-11T06:07:00.000-07:00

There is something about the song, cry by both rihanna and mandy moore so true, as well as i'm not missing you by stacy orrico and also Almost by JennyC. OH LOL.

fifis sucks alot, ok now, is my blog interesting??

its like so annoying lah please, no one ever reads this blog, so idk why i bother posting stuff, thinking someone would care, and in the end i get the stereotype of attention whore, like, get a life lah please. I blog for people who care, not for people who don't. Cuz you know, I barely show my shitty side in person, because i like being nice and considerate, and i take it out at home and my parents hate me to shits for it, so yeah be grateful.

So anyways, today was boring. haha, no surprise. I'm going riding tomorrow. SYF is in 5 days, ok 4. and that means 5 days to my resignation. whoo! =D

bevienda!

BOO you.

2009-04-11T01:39:00.000-07:00

iamsodamnpissedatmyparentslahplease.

godielah.

idon'twantyoutocareaboutmeforafewdays,can?

Iwannarunawayandcomebackonlywheniwantto.

Whythefcukdon'tyouletmelivemylife.

Iwannagrowupmyway.

Iwannalearnfrommymistakessoletmemakesomeforfreakssake!

fuck it.

Off time,

2009-04-09T22:39:00.000-07:00

I finally got some off time,

from school and everything,

GOOD FRIDAY.

See the good?

Well, I ain't getting any. :(

I've been wayyyy to busy this week to update my sacred bloggie. I swear, i misss my lappie so much.

Okay, moment of truth, I had my SYF full-dress on Tuesday, It was soooooooooooo bad. I screwed up my lines and blockings. ah, wtf. Then Wednesday I had CIP, we spent 1 and a half hours at sheng siong looking for THICK mango, peach, strawberry cordinals or powder for our MilkSHAKEitSHAKEit™ LAWL. bought this cocktail drink which looked alcoholic, but wasn't. LOL. OH WELLIESSSS,

Yesterday was so goddamn cool lah ok please. LOL. We had to go ACS for last min rehersal, cuz tuesday was crap ok. So we went at like, 7.30am and reached at 8 and practiced till 9. Shan and I have the same hair style ok! she looks more cleopatra than me laaaaa but rehersals were better and then had to back to class! =.=' damn uh. Doing my COA with Sylv, recess was fked up. I got so annoyed with the rules in the council board lah please. I am so waiting for my resignation, Friday morning i don't care I am giving it to miss ang along with my tie, pray to god my mom has written a letter. okay, moving on, maths was fine, I didn't pay attention then when i heard how confusing it was, zoop! i woke up and listened and asked a million questions. HAHA, semangattt. Drama after school was awesome lah ok. DEEPAN BRUISED ME LIKE FUCK. my ARMS ARE BRUISED AND HURT ALOT. and someone scratched me during the fight scene. the bruises are from deepan grabbing me, during the break up scene, and like telling me off. scary sia if a real boyfriend does that. :S ABUSE. LOL HAHAHAA.

I wanna go Niloo's house today, but daddy don't let :(

Comparisons are easily done, once you've had a taste of perfection, like an apple hanging from a tree, i picked the ripest one, but i still got the seed. you said move on, where do i go...?

ciao

One second!

2009-04-05T05:49:00.000-07:00

boomshakalaka!

I'm random again today. =D shalalalalala~ I ate dinner already, currently skipping mengaji. ;D weee~ Nothing interesting happened today thou. I'm so wanting to go to school tomorrow. yay!

oh tush tush

2009-04-03T19:49:00.000-07:00

L O L.

I'm sorry for my sudden outburst yesterday.reading quotes on the internet does no good to me. haha. I smell of dog shampoo. Dutchess is sooooo annoying. She's barking at Zulu. Gah. I'm awake at this hour to give her a bath. shayt. I am so tired ok. I need to get rid of my eyebags lah. Stupid school. School makes children non-children. morning highness.

Yesterday was gay. G-A-Y gay! shalalalala! =.=' I did car directing duty and i saw so many people. well, DUH alicia, its school! -.- ok i mean, i saw so many people i know. ;D Assembly was fine. I actually miss the announcements, especially when i was doing it. It was like, so short, so empty. =( OH WELLIES!

We had 2.4 run yst. It was terrible. How the hell did i manage 12 mins last year? I got 15 mins this year. Rubbish man. SO unfit. lawl. I ran with Natasha. Got 34th place? Gosh, sucked to the max ok.

Every other lesson was so-so. My team screwed up Geo. Cuz we had too much to present and allowed only 10 mins max. They added in new slides and i could not summarize it. Chem was as usual. MISS GUO IGNORED ME AGAIN. WHATEVER LAH.

CDP was a CIP session. I find it totaly irritating lah. someone was being troublesome, and not going through all the facts before bringing up an idea. Kinda hard to work with people like that.

Went to 711 with Jun Liang, Nat and Aisyah. I reaaaaaaaally needed to go to cwp to change money. And I suddenly felt so freaking generous, I thought of buying KFC for all drama SYF members. =D whaha! So Nat followed me to change money and we bought KFC. While waiting, this HOT ok HOT dude, he was a mix, I'm very sure of that, was there. I was like telling nat and bragging and going OH MY GOD and all sorts. typical teenage girl. oh wellies.

Back to school, told everyone and we assembled at the canteen to eat. haha FARIS WAS TRYING TO KILL ME! hahahahaha lame lah! he was stuffing popcorn chicken into my mouth non-stop. stupid ok. I WAS LAUGHING SO HARD, I COULD NOT CHEW. ahahaha.. Boyfriend was being oh-so lame laah. oh yess, SOMEBODY WAS BLUSHING SOOO HARD CUZ HER BOYFRIEND WAS EXPRESSING HIS LOVE. ahem, ahem. "you want the thigh, or the breast?" AHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA HAHHAHAHHAHA, sorry sorry. Inside joke. Chicken. lol lol lol.

We only got a de-brief about Preview Night. It was quite good. I needed to talk to Mr. Sha about make-up arangements and stuff so I stayed on. I GOT ALOT of stupid pictures and videos of Mr Sha i say. aahem ahem. hahaha. :P

Went back with Dian =D met Nat at causeway. WOW ok. we chatted and chatted. Saw this mom who just could not get her son out of the baby chair. It was so stupid ok. I texted a person, and the person surprisingly replied and now i understand the whole picture already ok. OH WELLIES!

Went back with Li and Nazri. =D Met Fathin at customs and me did alot of laughing and screaming again. OH ELL!

and just when i got over you, you smiled and made my heart melt.

fcuk you biatch!

2009-04-03T08:21:00.000-07:00

"I was finally getting over you and actually believing I didn't need you. I was finally accepting you had another girl. Then you smiled at me and ruined it all."

WHY OH WHY. OHMYFREAKINGGOD.

oh, boo you.

2009-04-02T06:52:00.000-07:00

hello! ;D

I went to school today as usual but the bus was freaking late ok. I thought I had planned to go to school with Thomas but he said no? I was so effing confused. Went to school with Lavania, talliehoos happened.

First morning of mine doing new morning duty. The vest is funnnnnnnnn, but SOMEBODEH who had a spider in her hair asked me to put my hands behind my back. LOL. Then she was like, "eh, no direct the cars. Then put on music and follow the beat" AHAHAHA. joker eh head c? and i swear, during the speeches, RACHELLE WAS SOOOOOOOOO CUTE. haha.

English was super suckey alright. I TOTALY forgot to do the news share thang. damnit, and Mr. Yiu was super angry. alaah.

The rest of the school day was per normal. Bleh

I LOVE DRAMA. lots ok. we did a run through and did our preview. AWESOMENESSSSS. sooo many people where there ok. s-c-a-r-y! but we pulled it off and we toasted sparkling juice? hahaha deepan and i were acting drunk after a sip. lol. took many many pictures with Mr. Suka. and when i say many I mean MANY ok. like we took a picture with everyone times 100? lol. camwhore, i know. I like my costume and i like lavania's dress cuz its mine. HAHAH

After drama juniors and I decided to go out to celebrate. haha went to civic mac and got something to eat. some weirdo came and i got super scared ok. I was like, "i count to three we all run away" HAHAHA. they should know what i'm talking about. It was so fun lah.

would LOVE to elaborate but I'm currently struggling with Geo.

Fcuk.

I love that brand.

boom.

2009-03-30T04:31:00.000-07:00

Hello,

Isn't the new skin so refreshing;

You can barely tell the difference if I'm happy or sad;

It's like a super cool mirror that lets you see what you want to see;

What you want to believe;

Because when it comes down to it;

We're humans, and we make mistakes;

Stupid,clever mistakes.

Oxymoron.

But hey, the stupid mistakes are what makes us clever;

We're only human.

Today school was seriously funny okay. It all started in the morning, where I was so hyper. Oh yea, Congrats to;

Nini

Wan Sin

Pei See

Ivy

Juhainah

Saudah

Rachelle

For getting nominated for Head C. You guys are very lucky. All that hard work payed off. Oh wellies! Though some others deserved the posts too, if Miss Ang wants to play the game her way, OH WELL.

Malay class was FUNNY OK. SUPER DUPER DUPER FUNNY, it consisted, Su-haila. (not the HC) and Nana. both very erm, "interesting women" lawl. Nis please laugh at the last statement. And I was drawing on my leg, and cikgu scolded Nis cuz of idk what, so yeah.

Was texting a certain someone the whole day, and my battery was alrd half before recess, like -.-!

MATHS. I so hate maths today okay, I didn't need her stupid remarks. If i am slow, SO WHAT LA? walau. I actually paid full attention, cuz I was so freaking confused, the squares that belonged to the variables but the numbers already squared, like HUH?

After school was fun and saddening. First went to cwp with Nis, met Haikal there, then we go makan at Mac, he had to leave cuz of mom thingys. So nis and I went to buy earrings, and when we were passing shops, I could not find anything that can replace my band that can break any second ok. Its sooooo depressing =( haih, but she got her earrings an we took 178 back to school and it seriously reminded me of Burung ok. ;D So yeah, went to school and did homework in canteen. yay!

Went to Quadrangle to chill with the band members, Oh ya;

CONGRATS FOR THE SILVER! =D

It might not be GwH but its still good. =) So yeah, went up to lvl 4 and Lavania was looking for me, and we played hide and seek. LOL, it was sooo funny ok, she went up and down, and we were like running around. Recon baybeh. HAHA. Yeh, and I went home at 6-ish with Nis and Ashraf my lil junior cuz lavania emo. boohoo.

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~

2009-03-23T04:33:00.000-07:00

I'm homeeee I'm homeeee

Hello people

I'm homeeee.

KL was kinda fun

I'm already missing Eda,Jim,Adib and everyone ok

I'm homeeee.

haih.

I"M HOME LIKE FINALLY OK.

P.S, I actually DO love you

2009-03-18T21:13:00.000-07:00

Val knows what my title actually means.

Alright, back to basics,

Yes I am in love/out of love.

I've always been actually.

And now things have gotten worse I guess.

I made a BIG mistake yesterday and on Monday I think.

okay, no if I only did either one, its okay.

BUT I DID BOTH.

URGHLDAHSDBCAHDBFKHBSVCAKHFBCVKAFEBV.

two no mistakes come together and become the worst thing in my life.

ARGH.

Four lines, made my whole perspective change;

Cuz when you love someone, and they break your heart, don't give up on love;

Have faith restart.

And then it got me thinking, what if that person still has my heart? Cuz, when someone breaks something, if they reaaaaaaaaly sayang it, they would like, put it back together and keep it right? And if they're keeping it, I could only be in love with THAT person ONLY. right? Cuz when it comes down to it, maybe that person didn't mean to break it. Maybe it was by accident?OH THE LOVE OF KNOWING.

VAL! NOW I KNOW WHY P.S IS LIKE THAT! =DDD

"Fine. Suit urself. I will do anything to make u hate me".

I'm tired of this, please. Give it back.

or keep it safe, at least.

My holidays are very boring. I swear. I finished Chem and Geo alrd. Only left with Lit and MT. Geo is mainly the ppt. GAH. boring boring. I'm going to KL in an hour. Bringing my hwk. LIKE DUH ok. damnit. I'm talking to Nis about calamine lotion?? HAHAHA. I'm supposed to go to Niloo's school tomorrow you know! SAS! BUT I"M IN KL. URGH. ok no, GOING TO KL SOON. ARGHHH. BLABLABLA. I'm so hyperly-depressed. gah. Oh yea, did you know, I'm going crooked. ;)

ciao.

muah muah!

Rain Clouds, Silver Linings, Melancholic Agony, Carpe Diem.

2009-03-17T06:25:00.000-07:00

I'm fighting the wrong battle.

but i still think i need to fight it?

i know I'm stubborn,

i know I hate to lose,

oh well.

puff, puff.

2009-03-16T20:18:00.000-07:00

puffy puffy eyes.

I look like a panda seriously.

UGH, I don't know how I'm gonna survive my "intensive training" with Nat

at the rate I'm going, I'll die lah.

Sheesh.

Do you sometimes wonder,

if that someone REAAALY means what they say,

like, "oh, i want you to come, but cuz of your asthma i didn't invite you cuz i KNOW it's bad for you"

Like, do you believe them? or take it as an excuse for not inviting you?

Like, " I love you but, I'm not good for you"

Or, "I want you so bad, but I don't deserve you"

OR any other cheesy lines that people use.

well oh well,

maybe its just the sign of, "YOU SHOULD MOVE ON SWEETIE!"

lawl.

Bro is playing Halo 3. so annyoing.

Today will be a super duper boring day, i swear.

At the rate I'm going I will have to do my homework to kill time.

HUAHUA.

I keep trying to send Miss Tan the Speech Day thing.

But there's this stupid mail-daemon or wdv telling me its not sent like,

wtfish.

i so do feel like laughing out loud ok.

i'm talking to fav. person right now.

(HAHA)

you know, I had rashes for a whole week on my already ugly legs.

its finally gone. YAY.

come on, cheer with me, YAY!

Nat, i DID use Calamine Lotion ok.

fav person stopped talking :'(

WHAT EVA!

I wanna eat hersheys kisses.

soo craving for choco man.

UGH.

Oh yes, I need mascara and eyeliner.

Seriously lah, I'm out of it and mommeh will slap me if I use hers.

pfft.

ciao babeh.

I wanna go eat lah.

My booo!

2009-03-16T06:14:00.000-07:00

Isn't it so awesome, when you finally find out the truth.

like, after having to chase it for so long.

Althou there are consequences, its still the truth.

And then you figure out that as long as you KNOW your love is returned,

it doesn't matter the position you guys are in.

Its like the song My Boo, is it not?

"There's always one person that will always have your heart,

....

You will always be my boo

...

It started when we were younger you were mine,

Now another brother's taken over but its still in your eyes,

Eventhough we used to argue, its alright."

the rest is even more true.

wow. awesomeee.

I shall not dwell.

alright, an update, because i found out people actually DO read my blog. WOW. I am going to make up for ALL the things I've done, as promised and I will do my homework everytime. I shall go to the gym every other day to train up on my stamina and stuff, because I am fat and lazy. (HA HA) I shall start going out with a cute,rich american guy ( WHAT THE HELL ) and i shall be nice and friendly to everyone. This is because of karma. And i believe in karma. Woot.

I can't wait for the 31st, the BI catwalk will be awesomeeee. I need riding boots. URGENTLY. Vivy baby is being such an awesome little baby. I feel like saying WOW to everything. I'm so upbeat now. oh well, I'm free for the whole holidays. So i need plans. Faster book me! Everyone is booked except me, like how can this happen? HAHAH lawl. So life is awesome right now. Although I'm not like, with anyone or anything I'm in love and loved i guess. Cool right? hehehahahuhu. -.- ok, ali, stop it sia. I PROMISE JOYCE AND MAE I WONT SWEAR ANYMORE. haha weeee~ I feel so nice suddenly. ok ok so toodels lah! I wanna mandi and go out for dinner. I'm gonna look like Maryln Monroe with a white dress that will fly when i walk like a model past a vent in NYC. fat hopes man.

ciao

2A

2009-03-12T07:17:00.000-07:00

Syabooyah Sya- Sya- Syabooyah Role Call,

We are from 2A,

yeah,

We cheered the loudest,

yeah,

And hell we won this,

yeah,

Cuz you couldn't bring it on,

Syabooyah Sya- Sya- Syabooyah break it down now!

I love you cheer people.

Champion class is such a good rep.

woots!

empty

2009-03-07T20:29:00.000-08:00

I'm sure all of us had those days where we would get a million text messages and phone calls. Days where we would always have something going on. When we go to school a billion people say hi as we make our way to our "spot" in the hall where no one else sits except us and surrounding is our group of friends.

And this group of friends is our little gang, our haven, our life.

its where we complain about stuff and they listen and vice versa. it were days when we feel so complete and loved. Everyone in the gang is submissve and dominant when needed. And there's a slight, almost unrealizable, heiracy in the group and we all know it. Thanks to that person the group is still together. And that is the "leader" in a way. The alpha wolf. In the gang that person doesn't have any better rights but its an informal choice as everyone accepts their decisions without moaning or force and they feel as superior as that informal leader. And that gang can't be called a clique cuz we hang out with other people too and put them first sometimes. It's a very flexible thing. Outings we're all in it together. We've got our bestfriends in the group and out and no one frets about it. We support each other unconditionally. And the whole group gets in trouble and the whole group is famous and popular cuz we're a group. A small society that anyone can come in but when they go out, we ask why. A group that leaves no one out. No favouritisme or anything. Its a fair group because everybody knows how important everybody is. We don't fight, we just tell them in the face. There are no rules or anything. We all squeal when we see someones crush or boyfriend. We share excitement and get influenced, willingly. And we all love each other to the death. And we KNOW it isn't a one sided love because we know how important they are to us and we'd die if they aren't there. Cuz its not only you calling them, and its not only you putting them first. They come to you too not just you come to them. They feel your pain too. That gang, that haven was the reason you went to school, was the reason you pick up the phone, was the reason you'll talk to them about anything.

and i miss my lil gang

sometimes i wonder if they miss me too

because they don't seem to be trying to keep a tie.

Ok, i know big groups are hard to keep. But what about best friends? They should be the person who always puts you first and you put them first. but why why why do people just SAY stuff. "i'm you best friend" and then hangs out with someone else more. its R U B B I S H.

This is the closest colour i could find to the 07' prefects uniform.

I so miss convent days

Where we're just us and no one elses' opinions mattered.

I so miss feeling loved.

Cuz now i feel like everyone's just talking to me cuz i'm a pity case.

When they say i miss you too, its just to be polite.

Yeah, maybe I've changed, but you've changed too.

The difference is I accept that.

So what if i'm a lil outdated on the details,

So what if it's a "convent thing".

once a convent girl, always a convent girl.

Its not that I don't like my life in Singapore,

I do, very much.

But do you expect me to throw away the better stuff?

high school sucks.

seriously

reflection..?

2009-03-06T20:37:00.000-08:00

I'm here to summarize what I learnt yesterday.

The being happy thing, yeah.

1) People find it annoying when someone is happy all the time. us humans seriously have jealousy and tolerance problems.

2) I learnt that I can be happy about anything, when something bad happens, try to think about the good stuff that could happen after.

3) When your so busy being happy, those "big" problems and people you cant get over never cross your mind.

4) When your happy, you don't feel un-loved or low self esteem because your sorta being who you are and embracing it. You enjoy it, so peoples thoughts don't matter.

5) You sorta pass the happiness. When someone is down, and your all happy, you go to them with a smile on your face and tell them to cheer up. Be understanding, don't pity them, and tell them the happy stuff. Cuz when your happy, you think happy.

i didn't cry last night. cuz i realized that when your so happy the whole day, the highlights are the happy stuff. Those problems seem like nothing.

wow.

I promised I'll be happy.

2009-03-06T06:13:00.001-08:00

I promised myself I'll be happy today.

I am still VERY happy.

I promised it.

I'll have to be smiling in my sleep.

Because I'm happy.

Alot of shit happened today.

But i was very happy despite that.

I reminded myself that its just a game,

And i gotta have fun while playing the game.

you know during games when you make a mistake and you laugh it off. it only happens when your having fun. Thats why i'm happy =)

I forced myself to enjoy the silly moments and laugh along to what i'd have screamed at.

I saw people that i usually do the "Hey!...bitch" thing and said "hey (minus) bitch."

I felt so nice.

I was still smiling when he was watching me from the second floor,

I didn't even notice until sheila was like "shaaaaaboyah",

I was still happy when I was forced to be the proposition,

I was still happy when the guys at stall 3 irritated me by cutting ques,

I was still smiling when we did the particle thingy,

I was still happy when Mr Yiu did the "stead, temptation and something" talk,

even though it stabbed me a lil,

best of all, i didn't even realize HE was there until someone told me he was there. wow!

But i was truly super happy when i chilled with Nat and Syl.

Nat, our ah lian joke.

shhh!

And although I was kinda sad that I had to leave,

I was STILL happy that I'll be seeing someone else at customs.

I saw Nazri at interchange and i was happy,

I saw Fara at customs and i was happy.

I was STILL happy when the que was bloody long,

I was STILL smiling although i didn't see my "anak kambing" lol.

I was STILL happy when my mom lectured me.

I was STILL happy when Dutchess tried to give me rabies.

I am STILL happy although i am very tired.

I'm so proud of myself.

So yeah, I'm going to sleep today with a smile.

I'll be happy TODAY. =D

I promised.

and when the clock strikes 12,

imma let the tears flow baybeh!

its called mood swings babeh.

matters of the heart can't be controlled.

I know I'm in drama, but i don't ACT it.

what goes around, comes around,

what goes up, must come down.

muaxcks

I gave him hard, showed him what i got.

2009-03-01T02:31:00.000-08:00

These past few days have been a roller coaster ride for me

Feelings up and down, moodswings

In and out of love and confusion

But the climax finally came, and I'm so damn happy to say:

I am SO over you boy.

I find it cool, how one thing in my life could surpass everything

Like, when you do that thing, nothing else mattered

And when you do that thing, no matter how tiring or troublesome it is, you'll just do it

Because you LOVE it, as in L-O-V-E like passion.

Wordsinpictures;

I took a ton of pictures, for everything. but i'm too lazy to update about it all,

urgh.

but I'm so over syafiq and life goes on. =)

And I miss my babyboo!

ciao honeyh!

And it rains.

2009-02-18T04:56:00.000-08:00

2A 2A. OMG i love my class. haha Alvin's a funny dude, talks alot. haha reminds me of me. LOL.

Class cheer coming on well, I got 17/30 for maths. Thank lord i passed. Dutchess is arriving on sat. weet! ok, and i think i'm in love. but i have no idea with who. boyfriend, as in deepan drama boyf, is a jerk. LOL and boyfriend, as in my boy, is a jerkier jerk. k bye.

and i stare at the phone,

you still haven't texted,

and then i feel so low,

i can't feel nothing at all.

oh, i mish you to the apple core.

ciao

Back up, baby back up.

2009-02-14T23:40:00.000-08:00

its not as easy as i thought,

but its nicer to see him and smile,

than to roll my eyes and get so uptight about it,

Syafiq's happy now,

i guess i should be too.

Life is a bitch. haha. I noticed that a long time ago. I also knew that secrets are meant to be kept. and i find it no use to mention the WHOLE subject but use no names. So from now on, I'll tell people straight in their faces and not vent in bloggies. I shall vent, to certain people. but when i vent, the feeling is temporary. ok bleh.

and it rains in your bedroom

and everything is wrong.

it rains when your here,

and it rains when your gone.

and i stare at the phone,

he still hasn't called,

and you feel so low,

you can't feel nothing at all.

I find that paragraph sooo true. That is E X A C T L Y how i feel right now. ugh, lets move on.

I had riding yesterday and today. =D i stayed at the lodge. weet weet! so awesome. I did jumping on rocky. OH GOD i swear it was soooooo scary. but it was fun, but it was freaky but it was so cool but rocky went so fast, but i enjoyed it, but it was scary. ok. Vivy love is fineee. looking like a warmblood yaw! It was valentines weekend there. hee hee, fun fun fun. The chocolates were heartshaped and the brownies were SUPER fudgy. Too bad there weren't ANY cute guys. UGH. lololol. I got red red rose, from Mr Senett. -.- ahhaha. better than nothing!

Next week I ain't going drama. I've gotta go to SSI's thingy. =D LUV LUV! ahhaah -..- So yeah, warninggg. And I'm gonna see Jasmine and Caroline and Jiew Ann, OMG so many people will be thereeeeee. yippieeeeee.

Ok, lets talk about me going to KL. I'm kinda excited about it. I sooo don't wanna leave JB and SG. I get two awesome flavors in one. who could ask for more?? But I also am super psyched about going to KL. I just LOVE bukit kiara. Alia is there, Adib is there. OOH! ahaha. alot of things are going on there. I might re-amp my modeling yo! haha -.- oh my, not to mention eness, like my bestfriend since baby-hood. haha. gosh, choices choices. well, not that i can chose to go to KL or not. gawd.

SYF SYF. Well, I AM Yan Li. I AM one of the leads. and I AM offered to do something big during the SYF period. GOD. I so totaly need the dates man.

I'm gonna go make a new video clip now. weet!

ciao babeh.

Cheerio!

2009-02-11T19:16:00.000-08:00

Baby cuz its overrr.

I've been such a bitch of a girlfriend.

HAHA or what?

How many people don't know about my sweetie?

yeah, thats why.

imma love you better boy,

Its been for-evah! since i last posted. Caught up in love-sickness. In and out of love. Anisah knows the most. =) thanks for being my shrink! So, lotsa things have happened. Well, I shall start off with today, I skipped school, period cramps, blegh. Plan to go for drama later. I'm Yan Li, yeah, important shit yannow. hehe, i can live for 3 hours laaaa. =) anyways, love life is actually fine, considering the fact i DO have a boo and that i AM over Syafiq. Finally, yeah i know. I'm fine in school with friends and stuff. Sec two is easy shit, I don't pay attention and i still get alright grades. Sylv and I are alright now. =D I so totaly miss her. oooh! Valentines around the corner! I don't have a date, considering my boyfriend isn't a V-day fan. I'm allowed someone on Vday. aww or what? haha, but I'm spending it at the Lodge, seeing my babyboonumber2~ haha. it's been exactly ONE month, since i rode him. Shit or what? I am soo dead. haih haih haih haih. Alright, about Sukma, well, Wilayah wants me in, i need to send a photocopied version of my IC but with a wilayah add.... Fish or what. Oh-yes, and I might be relocating to KL sooner or later. Soon as June, Late as next year. Oh well, I love you guys here in JB and in SG. I'll miss you lots.

Sec 2 life is without a doubt awesome. Everythin is actually getting better. I love my classmates. Oh yes, yesterday was the rap thingy and very little wanted to do the rap. I already had Sylv with me and we needed at least 4 others. Then no one wanted and I got so pissed I said, "Yannow, i know this rap ain't very good, nor am I at rapping, but I'm doing this for 2A because I love this class and you guys in it, so just do it for 2A-lah" HAHA SOUL OR WHAT!?!?!? then knowing my class and sylvia they were, "chey chey chey" then clap -.- haha bt yeah, I love 2A. Not to mention the Balloon thingy. I got sabo-ed like hell man. haha. Not to mention sports day. Everyone contributed. Can you believe that I'm supposed to play soccer? -.- like eff ok. But I'm playing street netball, running 4X100 and doing cheerleading. =D We've got 16 people in the cheer and i hope its counting alright. We've chosen Japan, and I think we've gotta make our class flag Japan-ish. OOH wow! I so love my class alright. And wanna say thank you to a few people;

Junjie

for putting up with my crap every moment of every weekday.

your the boring person that keeps me sane and allows me to get some sleep during maths. =D

Laura

for letting me borrow your correction tape,

i know i should have one by now, but oh well!

Pravin-a!

hah, for letting me play with your hair during maths.

ILY alot k.

Hyli

for screamin with me everytime Mr Yiu shows a pic of Edward Cullen.

LOL

Zhi Bin

for calling me pontianak! -.-

Jun Liang

for trying to molest me. HAHA, i seriously find it hillarious.

I'll laugh during physics without fail.

Aisyah

for always asking me to follow you to take meal coupons and eating recess with you

Dominic

for talking crap during groupwork, your seriously nonsensecial

Chun Hao

for being such an adorable introvert, and giving me the chance to scream "whoo" everytime you go out to do wordshare

Chi Hao

for being my teddybear, 3 hugs ++ a day is very very nice of you to tolerate

Val

for smiling at my jokes and laughing everytime you see my face. =D

Hazel

for the korean song that i have not yet learnt to sing but i can say it out!

Sylvister ( haha!)

for being the in-charge-with-me everytime we've got something to do and my acting buddeh!

Sheilala!

for being the person i can always tease *name cannot be mentioned*. haha :P

Nat

for tolerating my crap and getting into somewhat trouble with me. haha

and everyone else in two A. =D thanks for putting up with my nonsense. ILY lots k.

the 2B-er that i seriously sayang gilergiler to the apple core:

Hanisah/Nissy/Nis/Hanis(?):

LOL. for telling me that your in love with a guy every malay lesson, and for letting me have a laugh during malay lesson, especially the day when you called me Alic and i called you Hanis. OH WELL WELL. =D ILY k best/good/no friend.

Alright, long speeches aside. HAHA Basically, I love 2A lots. And KNOWING this is my last year in SG, I wanna make the best of it. I agree that me not getting over syafiq has wasted one whole month, but I've got 5 more or 11 more to make up for it. =D And yannow, Aryl, my bro terrrrsayang, goes to the same ITE as Raj? haha cool huh? And ITE college west is near bedok there. haha awesome right? haha. Oh yes, Van life is cool. And terrsayang is in my van. weet weet or what eh? haha. I realized my hair got longer. (OH LIKE DUH ALICIA) haha but its nice, long hair that is. Everytime i'm frustrated I take off my hairtie and shake my head. then all the flying hair is like, so cool. -.- haha I am Jakun, yes i know. Alrighty, I wanna showerrr and then get ready to go for drama. =D

cherrio!

xoxo

The Long Post of Long-agony. wth

2009-01-28T03:40:00.000-08:00

For the past month/few months, I've been filling my blog with cheesy lines from love songs. eugh. And in the past few weeks, it's been lines from breakup songs. The ones that want the person back, that is.

I'm so in love with you, I don't know what to do, this time.

As much as I wanna say this line is stupid, it ain't. =D

I don't wanna be in love, I don't wanna be in love.

As much as I want this line to be true, I can't control my feelings all the time, can I?

Right now, I can't blog. HAHA . Dad is nagging at me. Asking me to come downstairs. LO-OL. =D.

Out of my mind.

2009-01-24T20:00:00.000-08:00

You Called me on the phone today

Said those words u always say

And I cried

I've gotta figure out what's going on inside this head of mine

But I've Tried

Going crazy thinking 'bout the way I shouldn't have left it all behind

But Now I'm gone and somethings wrong I changed my mind

I'm so in love with you, I don't know what to do, this time

And though you're out of sight, you're never ever out of my mind.

I Saw you just the other day,those feelings never went away

And I smiled

Told you I'll be back and I want us to be friends and be alright.

Don't know what to say, it's getting harder everyday but it takes time

You should know, I'm coming home, stand by...

I'm so in love with you, I don't know what to do this time

And though you're out of sight, you're never ever out of my mind

As time passes by, I fall asleep without you by my side

I go out of my mind, remembering the way we were...before

I'm so in love with you, I don't know what to do, this time

And though you're out of sight, you're never ever out of my mind

I'm so in love with you, I don't

know what to do, this time..

Nini, I think you know who this song is for. =)

=)

2009-01-24T05:05:00.000-08:00

Takes time for me to chill. Just got my computer back. So yeah, super late updateee.

I miss S alot k. too much for me to handle already. haihhh

I never knew I could love someone so much till it hurt.

warwick avenueeeeeee

2009-01-20T03:25:00.000-08:00

SYAFIQ HAS TOTALY PISSED ME OFF. AND IN THIS POST I AM GOING TO SAY ALOT OF NAMES AND I DON"T GIVE A FUCK IF YOUR GONNA HATE ME FOR LIFE BECAUSE IT"S THE FUCKING TRUTH AND YOU GOTTA HANDLE IT. TYVM.

don't bother reading if you can't/don't wanna face the truth.

I know it's my prespective, but it's my life too kay?

Headlines; Syafiq sucks.

Why? ; oh because he seriously does.

I'm so pissed at him sia. Tells me this, but means something else.

And Sylv, i know you already hate me, so the world doesn't revolve around you alright? And you talk about offensive talk, babe, sorry but i'm not a mirror. It would be nice of you to tell me what the fuck is wrong about me than to bitch about me? The most I've done so far is tell some people that i'm pissed at you. How many times you wanna say sorry and then start all over? This time, I'm telling the world because isn't that what you did to me. awww to bad honey. -.-

Hyliana, what did i ever do to you?

Anisah, please can you not be a Syafiq number two and leave me hanging with all these

rumours/lies/truth from other people alright. If you still like him, i understand.

And to all others who claim"your attitude is offensive and we aren't your JB friends", you don't have to be my JB friends. You just gotta fucking be a fucking friend and tolerate, accept and understand me like how i've tolerated all your shit for one year already. I'm nice, and i know that. You guys hurt me like fuck and i don't mind, why? cuz i'm nice. Why don't we push away the bad points and get the good? Oh i forgot, so typical singaporean, always think others are out to get you. pffft. -.- i don't care if i'm being racist/ country-ist. I'm so pissed i don't mind slapping a few faces.

Tears.

2009-01-13T04:14:00.000-08:00

Somehow, wondering if you ever really did like me, is the most painful thing i've ever gone through.

I wanna update about today, I really do. But i just feel so disgusted with myself for what i did in drama. The thing i chose to share with everyone. It makes me feel so exposed and vounerable when I show the side of me i showed in drama. I felt so hopeless and helpless. I don't like feeling like that. Whatever lah, If i have the mood i'll update. Till then;

sainara

How could you live with guilt like that?

Green.

2009-01-12T04:35:00.001-08:00

with the green plush keychain, and the green pencil.

Hari ini sungguh dicinta =D

We shall start off with waking up?;

woke up, first time of the year i washed my hair in the morning =D got to customs, yadidadida, went to interchange to meet V. and I was complaining to V all about my S problems. And V gave me SOME advice. haha. Saw sylvester ;) (thought i saw a puddy tat?). HAHA k, k lame. In the bus V was blocking the way. haha Venga OH Venga. and then this one kepoh lady stood in between us and i was doing my best to control my laughter at V's facial expression? So, life goes on. Go to school annoy Val. -.- Lavania's idea all the way ok, i got better things to do =) So then assembly was in the hall, like, wowww! -.- I was SUPER semangat, take the damn book and WAIT then everyone was asking, what announcements, and i said, none. FINALLY Bi Xuan was like, "No announcements no need lah!" my face was EXACTLY like the : -.- emoticon ok. haha So i ran down and sat behind Sylvester. Then after the BB thingy there was this crime prvention thingy bleh. And the poilce kept saying; "outburst of molesty" insted of "outburst of modesty". AHAHA, Hillarious? So one of the questions i sabo sylv like giler. haaha oops! LOL but it was very funny. Couldn't stop laughing.

Due to the LONG and i mean, LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG talk on crime prevention or wdv, we missed Maths =D and half of Geo =(. haih haih, well well Maths hwk is fk as usual, Geo was fun =) And went recess, Val and I were discussing the topics of cutting or body carving? anyways, we were talking about our badges, and that the councillor tie pin has scratched me. And i told her about the DnT one where i was hysterical in a whispering manner? hahahaha only some of us know ok. SO blabla had fun. Then it was Malay =D. Hanisah and I couldn't stop laughing? Seriously ok, teacher had to ask us what "joke" we were laughing at about 3 times? hahah. We discussed about what I'm getting her for her Birthday. =D So people, I've chopped, don't try and buy duplicate ok? We came up with names for each other? These are the "pairings";

Alicia;Hanisah

Aly; Nissy

Ali;Nis

Alic???;Hanis???

Lame but funny in a cool way? -.- After Malay was aesthetics? haha awesome shit! fun fun fun. I became like, totaly director. adui, i mean, not my fault people don't voice out? ok maybe sometimes i don't listen, but i mean, i can't help myself, i'm a control freak. so sue me? bleh, leaving it as it is. Then English was even funnier? my group and i were laughing SO MUCH at Dominics' Jokes. hahaha we didn't get anything done? lo-ol! After school i was a total emo kid alright? I just didn't like what you said, or did. ok?

haraplah kesalahanku dapat dimaafkan? =(

I'd have rather you gained the guts and told me. Maybe she might be lying, but when a liar says something as hurtful as that, we do doubt.

ciao

Sin-GIA-PO! #2~

2009-01-10T04:03:00.000-08:00

wanita, oh wanita.

please eh, just because your an ang moh,

or half, or whatever,

doesn't make you better than ANY of us asian woodlanders.

THEY may worship you,

but heres the fact, i'm quater ang moh,

and i hang out with ang moh too.

Truth is, we're all the same.

You may have everyone else fooled,

with your nationality and the way you look,

but your no where NEAR as good as us asians.

Hence, please please try not to be as bitchy as those preppy ang moh girls.

and you don't even know me. so don't bitch about me to MY dearest.

tyvm.

Dear, dear school on friday, boring shit? LOL.

Supposed to go to schoo with nis, but the causeway was a fuck to me. But i arrived before her?lolagenesisss. So blabla, did annoucements. I don't really remember what happened in class? haha alright. so CCA day thingy;

Us councillors had to do duty, ushering, etc. So, val and I were at the entrance of the school, showing parents where to go. I helped out drama a lil'; did some peoples hair, make up, etc. Then was about 2 mins late for councillor thingy. haha, val and i were laughing at the expression of people walking in. and i said good afternoon to ALOT of people, and only like, 5 aknowledged, or however you spell the freaking word. It was V E R Y frustrating, yet fun in it's own way. haha, val knows what i'm talking about. lol.

Frustration increased when i saw two of the alumni of drama. I swear, i could've puked there and then. Seeing them made me wanna puke every little thing i ate that day, (which was VERY little), out. And sylvia already was out with lavania. I swear, the both of us have the same problems. Went canteen bought drink. Robotics banner was so, D E S P R A T E. hahaha they made it really big. LOL when drama had, persuation skills ;) LO-OL! but anyways, while waiting, i had to get my PE, which means going into the innovation room, which means seeing those two shites. SO i ran in and begged lavania for my shirt. got in and out in a split second. then changed, blablabla.

After duty could go help CCA :S i had to go into the innovation room, where THEY were. i was SO fking irritated already? and i had to get irritated by them even more? unfairness. but because i love drama so much, i seriously just didn't give a heck about my personal issues, and did my thang. =) I got to see faris!! =D i was soo happy. he's such a sweetheart. I'll screw you people who think he's a weirdo. he was like ; "eh i miss your face lah" hahah and we got down to business. his makeup is awesomness! =D so i did the MC-ing with stacey. and i swear, i didn't remember the sequence at all. hahah i was asking stacey in between topics? ahahaha. other than those two people in the room, CCA day was awesome shit! OH! after it all sorta ended, drama club went out and shouted, "DRAMA!" ahhahaha, we got caught n mr sha got scolding. ahahah woot!

After drama, was supposed to meet dearest. but then, one VERY JEALOUS BITCH who is not at all at peace with me although i hardly know her, (lets name her, VJB) found out and she asked dearest to meet her at the same place i was supposed to meet him. and he couldn't say no? so i got so freaking pissed. not jealous, pissed. because i KNOW she wants to try and break us up, athou me and dearest aren't exactly an item. wdv man you bitch. well well, history has made itself.

I shall not update about what happened today, except that drama was very very very fun =) Teeveee!!! hahah she's the BEST person to carry. seriously? hahaha

ciao babey.

oooooh cinta!

2009-01-08T04:48:00.000-08:00

I'm getting better at kissing. HA!

ooooh well well well, haven't updated for some time now. hee hee, we shall start with the 6th.

6/1/09;

Went to school with Syafiq. ;D First day with time table so brought heavy heavy bag. haha blabla, didn't hv aesthetics, heartbroke into 1000 pieces. (DRAMMAAAAAA) blabla, after school had to meet for councillor thingy. We were in charge of sec 1 orientation for CCA trails. hee hee, my juniors so cute;

J; councillor-
A; Don't call me councillor, cuz we're all councillors.
J; oh, whats your name?

HAHAHAH cuteness or what? oh also;

J; How to become councillor leh?
A; Well, first has to be attire, shirt tucked in *quickly tucks in shirt*, skirt below the knees *pulls skirt below the knees*, socks above ankle *pulls socks above ankle*,(etc, etc)

They laughed, haha so cute lah.

7/1/09;

went to school with lava, slept in physics, hate my maths teacher. Mr Yiu is cool. haha

today;

blabla blublu, we kissed in the lift? hahhahaha -.-

the end lah.

DRAMA ROCKS!

-.-'''

ily

bleh!

2009-01-06T05:22:00.000-08:00

I am very very tired.

School was interesting. VERY VERY.

Shall update 2moro.

K, ILY guys.

1st Day of School "so called"

2009-01-05T00:26:00.000-08:00

School finally started, Cheers!!

Big Big hooray for that please.

Well, got up at 3.45 being SUPER semangat. Got ready, waited for the van till 5.30 and then found out the thing left me, half an hour ago. I was so pissed. Dad dropped me off at customs, walk walk walk, all the way to SG customs. Texted Syafiq, said i couldn't make it. Arrived and cleared at about 6.45. (oops, i could make it?) So anyways, went to school, got councillor tie. =D I look so ~~weird~~ cool (??) haha -.- Saw Venga, he arrived later than me, wth. I didn't show off to him, it was in the middle of the foyer??

Went into councillor room and etc etc, went to get announcement book. HAHA, one announcement seriously made me very very annoyed/pissed off/etc. No need to know what. lol. Only saw ding 5 mins before i had to go up and make the announcements. Haha, then met Mr. Ong regarding the announcement. It's nothing bad, it's very good. :P

Went to class, saw all my classmates, hehe, Mr Yiu is very cool? lol. Mrs Liau is boring, went for recess, ladi-dadi-da, stuff happened, involving the stairs? haha funny story, not to be told. Went up for Malay lesson& DnT. OH! funfunfun. Mr Choh is so cool? he's like making DnT fun like, F-U-N. hahaha. Assembly was cancelled. YAY!

oooooooh, cinta!

and you could still ask me why.

I miss Li!! I saw her in school today again, but it's not like 1A days =( haiihhh.

I think I'm lucky I'm not in the same class as her, not li but, her. She sorta, spoils everything? Little kid lah.

Tomorrow I'm going to school with Syafiq. HAHA, hope the stupid jam doesn't affect sia -.-

k, ily, bye

Lyrics!

2009-01-03T23:23:00.000-08:00

Here I am being SUCH a show off (HAHA) posting lyrics of my new song ;

Just because I kissed you; before,

Doesn't mean I'll miss you; later,

Just because I said you're; mine,

I didn't refer to; forever,

baby,

Don't you; don't you think,

We don't really mean; the things we say or do,

Don't you; don't you think,

That we're just terrible liars,

trying to please our hearts.

oh oh oh,

Just because you held me; close,

I guess it just wasn't; for real,

All this love i thought; i had,

Turned out to be just; you playing the field.

Don't you; Don't you think,

We don't really mean; the things we say or do,

Don't you; don't you think,

That we're just terrible liars,

trying to please our hearts.

oh oh oh,

oh oh oh ,

oh oh,

oh yeah!

here we go..

I just, can't figure it out,

Why we don't draw a line,

Why does this,

Heart have to be broken,

so many times,

oh oh oh,

Don't you; oh don't you think that,

We don't really mean the things we say or do,

Don't you; oh don't you think that,

We're just terrible liars,

Oh,

Terrible liars,

That only please our hearts,

oh oh oh,

Don't you; Don't you; Don't you think so.

oh oh oh,

Don't you; oh baby; Don't you??

Credits to; Myself

Why? Cuz i did it myself.

HAHA -.-

Gay gay gay, I've got piano in an hour. ISHHHH. k bye, enjoy the song. Make tunes for it and tell me, the tune in my head for this song is sick. k bye.

09'

2009-01-03T02:06:00.001-08:00

I know this is a VERY late update for "start of 09'".

I shall follow ulut's inspiration to do a long post.

Why? Because I want to.

There is no rules in saying we can not be inspired by others ;)

So, lets get started, shall we? ;

I don't know who is reading this,

Sometimes i feel people don't even read my blog?

It's like, people who i call my friends, don't read my blog.

I'm not THAT petty but I'm just thinking.

I'm going to brag about my iPod touch cuz you see, people say i'm a show off =).

Skip this paragraph if you like.

Anyways, I've got an iPod for Christmas =D.

The touch one, yeah it's awesome.

I've got tons and tons of songs and applications =)

OH! and I've got this fish game, it's soooo fun.

We get to breed fish! And then sell.

It's called fish tycoon! heheheh -.-'''

I wanna put in movies, but which ones?

Well, my new years eve was pretty boring actually.

Went to sunway with family. -.- UGH.

I wanted to be HERE in JB with ZOE and her BBQ!

Or I would drop by Mae's house and celebrate the NYE cheer with her, since she doesn't celebrate it.

We would drink shandy! ;) hehehehe.

But no, I ended up in sunway doing NOTHING at midnight =(

Ish ish ish ish. Oh well, at least 09' is looking up for me! =D

My back hurts, alot, from cutting grass yesterday.

Cuz i had to hunch to cut, when i usually sit straight.

Aduiiii.

I'm texting Nis right now, haha.

We're not talking again.

It's so frustrating lah.

Can't he just like, TELL ME.-.-

Since April, tidak mengalah, in June, this happened.

And I still like him. Sheesh.

I need to get a hold of myself.

Alright, for SUKMA 2010 I'm already getting ready.

My dad wants me to join Team Johor -.- but I wanna join Team Wilayah.

If my team does well, we get to represent M'sia in the Youth Olympics.

COOL OR WHAT? That would be so, amazing, seriously.

Wilayah has, Jim, Adib, Rhianna, Cheynne, Natalyia and some other riders i have yet to know.

But in JB there is, .... no one i know?

And both teams want me in. A D U I ! ! !

My pimple is gone. =D

2009 should be a acne free year for me!

I wish ok. haha

My dad forced me to clean my room today.

HAIHHHHHHHHH. *sighs summore*

It's so clean. *shrugs*

Clean is fine, but it's like, ORGANISED like, no personality kinda thingy?

That is very very sick ok, and he wants me to keep he granny carpet. OMG!

alright, ending here lah. kbyebye =)

ciao

Better off,

2008-12-30T01:07:00.000-08:00

I think I'm better off with someone else by my side,

I think I'm better off without those lies,

I think I'm better off not thinking your all mine,

I think I'm better off not wishing you were here,

I think I'm better off trying to forget you,

I think I'm better off figuring out this life,

but all i really know is,

That I'm better off, better off without you boy.

sometimes i catch myself wondering where i belong, because i KNOW it ain't JB. Maybe KL or SG? I really don't know, in KL I've got my awesome riding friends, we're totaly a family. In SG I've got my school friends, they're awesome. Currently, dad wants to move to KL. Yeah, and it's shitty cuz I might have to school in a gov. school. Damnit, I'm wasting one fucking year. In SG i would grad at sec 4, and take A levels at sec 5. In KL/M'sia I would grad at Sec 5 and no prom whatsoever then take A levels at Sec 6 which totaly shit when I can save one year in SG. gaygaygaygay! All the sucky things are happening this year, 09' better be something worth waiting for lah, first day of school itself already on friday. I swear, I'm going to freak out totaly. Gosh. I'm spending new years with cousins. YAY ME! =D 0.0 except that Liyana is spending newyears with "friends" so it's with immidiate family. tooot. I love Alia, I love Zehan, I miss them so much. haha, today went to Devi's corner for lunchhhh. weet weet. wdv lah. I'm not gonna lie, I want school to start and I wanna finish my hwk and i don't wanna feel bad anymore. THE END.

BLEHHH,

=DD

2008-12-29T07:56:00.000-08:00

Cuz he's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar,

the only one who's got enough of me to break my heart.

the end ;|

bum bum bee dum dum bee dum dum

2008-12-28T21:28:00.000-08:00

DISTURBIA!!!

oh oh oh.

why why why,

i really don't wanna like you,

and why oh why,

since april you have stolen my heart,

by accident. dayum.

SNAP!

2008-12-26T19:16:00.000-08:00

The bride and her twin sis. Alia and Zehan, can figure out who is who?

Pictures with frames are credited to miss Nadia Fauzi, =D

han, johan, zehan, farrah, me, justin, reza

feet! see mine?

The Bride, Alia. ain't she just gorgeous?

carcosa was B-E-A-U-TIFUL!

We're singing?

Bride and Groom =D

First dance

Christmas pictures =D

yes, i look pregnant. but i'm not.

cousin and i

wasn't drunk yet

with cushion!

at the start

Suckey Christmas

2008-12-26T18:35:00.000-08:00

I really thought Christmas this year would be awesome, because i'm in KL, and cousins and co. are here. It's very frustrating to have what you've wanted so badly turns out to be a big flunk. I wanted Christmas with my oma, aunties, and cousins. Guess what, it sucked to the CORE. Ish, I feel so blehhh. I spend first few days in KL with my aunty from dad's side, yeah the wedding stuff, pictures will be up soon i hope. ;) So i stayed there till the 24th. And i was forced to come back thinking there was a christmas dinner that night, when there wasn't? like toot. So i was like "ugh, i should've stayed there one more day" and stuff, so next morning i persuaded my cousin into letting me go riding. So one big "yay" for that please;

YAY!

haha, i feel so pathetic. Then someone asked why I was late, and asked me to come early the next day, so i was like, ookayyy. hehe then well, christmas day, my parents came back. hehe kinda psyched about it i guess. I missed my dad alot. Alright, big drama happened. I shall not dwell into it. Present summary;

"A" keychain

from, oma

manicure set

from, santa. aka oma

super cute notebook, eyeshadow & lipgloss

from, aunty lana

Apple Insurance Plan

from, dad

Book entitled "Poseur"

from, mom

iPod Touch (finally sia)

from, mom&dad

RM20

from, wan yang. aka aunty ida

lots of L-O-V-E babeh!

from, Alia, Zehan, Uncle TT, Aunty Eugina, and Aunty Devi

~~Tender~~Scolding, Love, and Care

from, Aunty Rina

AWWWWW, I love them lots. MUAH MUAH! heee. The presies were good. It was just that there was no mood in it. We had Chicken, instead of turkey, no mashed potatoes, no gravy. We had, rice as one of the servings. sheesh. But we had champagne. hehe pictures dicinta in next post. :P gotta browse through my camera.

Yesterday was, very very very weird. We went out for bowling, with Amir and Alif, cousins of mine, Alif looks like harry potter. wow. serious. hoho. anyways the bowling alley was closed, cz there was like, a tournament or something. wdv so we watched yesman. weet weet! well well, it was very funny. I'm gonna say yes to everything now. HAHA joke. well oh well. I'lll put up the pictures soon.

ciao babeh!

CINTA!

2008-12-23T03:51:00.000-08:00

I love my cousins so much yannow. I really really do. I feel like a stalker following them arnd but I just love their company? And pressing the "wooo" button in Zehan punya iPhone and making her laugh is so funny. And she has come up with so manymany names for me; papan, sotong,stalker,cling on, etc etc. AHAHA, all have a LONG story behind them except the "papan" one cuz eveeryone calls me a papan =.= And i miss ALIA soooo much. They're twins yannow. =D I've always wanted a twin.

I love their advice, it may not be what i wanna hear, but I just take it in? It's the exact things my mom tells me but, the way the tell me just, makes me wanna follow? And they are so so so so so awesome, they don't bitch/gossip/do bad stuff yet they are so fun and go out partying, etc etc. And they are like, the reason I'm riding. CINTAAA SANGAT SANGAT. =)

hehe, alright enough about my cousins;

I OFFICIALLY ANTI A HITZ (dot) FM DJ.

MAEPEA KNOWS WHY.

HAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHA

I hope we all stay friends,

maybe there is a reason;

why rich people befriend "their kind"

because in the end,

those are the ones who look past the money.

In the end, everything we went through was similar,

It was just what we did that was different,

I could start all over if I wanted to,

And live my life the way you did,

But I wanna walk my own path now,

But I'll keep yours in plain sight. =)

SUKMA!

weee~ screw you Johor,

I'm on the Wilayah team babeh!

weet weet!

Cuz i'm better off, better off, without you boy.

save those tears for later babeh!

Yabagaba

2008-12-19T08:24:00.000-08:00

Oh cousins wedding was today =D. HEHE, loved it soso much. aww I love you Alia. or Alie! pronounced as A-LI. HEHE. congrats congrats. going to carcosa tomorrow. whew, partay-ing!! weet weet, toasting champagne, etc etc oh well, the usual. heehehehe. I've got this lil black dress, halter top, and i'm gonna pair it up with black-check-pantyhose, 3 inch wedges, and a Jason mraz hat! woot! hahahah.

alrighty, gonna snooze now. hehehehe, update tomorrow! k bye.

SIN-GIA-PO!

2008-12-18T06:45:00.000-08:00

Stayed in bedok for a week!

WOOTS!

whooohooooooo

k updated. LOL

my aunt is awsome, she let me go out like, WTF. i was soooo jakun. HAHAHAHA. K, alicia shutup.

I'm in love with my horse, for those of you who have been asking.

I was and always will be.

I miss him to the death.

C-I-N-T-A

whoooowhoooowhoooooowhoooo. K, mae,zoe,lav,shz,fara, I am chilled =D

lalalalala.

k byebye i updated crap. HAHA

SURPRISEEEE

2008-12-14T04:18:00.000-08:00

I like the fact that, months after i've told myself that something isn't meant to be, and just before i give up, it turns out? yet, I hate it. But more to like la =D

cintaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

reminds me of;

wanitaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

(HA, Nis ingat?)

SYF SYF! woots. exciting.

Sooner or later, life turns out good. =D

maybe i feel the same way?

HAHA, k berbual seorang.

I know you don't read blogs.

I was tagged. -.-

2008-12-13T03:58:00.000-08:00

Rules & Regulations:-

Do not copy answers.

The tag questions must be 100% the same.

Tag people after doing tag.

No tagging back.

I shall tag:-

1) ULUT!!/ Mae

2) Zoe

3) Halili

4) Hanisah!

5) Joyceee

6) Ryan!

7) SEAN!

8) BRENDON!

9) CED!!

Questions:-

1. How do you know 1? (ULUTTTT)

Through weekly UPSR exams. AHHAHAHAH PAPER/ERASER FIGHT!!

2. What would you do if you never met 2? (ZOEEEE)

I would be those preppy and stuck up bitches. THANKS KAN!!

3. What would you do if 3 and 4 dated you? (Halili&Hanisah)

HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAH, HALILI IS SOOO NOT LES. I am Nis punya "boyfriend" what.LOL HAHAHAHAHAHAHAhAH

4. Would 5 and 6 make a good couple? (Joyce&Ryan)

HAHAHAHAHAHA NOOOOO ryan is attached!

5. Do you think 7 is attractive? (SEAN)

HA! SUPERRRR HOT. HHHAHAAHAHAHAHHAHAAHHAAHAHHAHAHAHHA. but i really do like his green eyes ;D

6. Do you know anything about 8's family? (BRENDON)

His mom was a model, his sister and I used to like the same guy (AHAH) and his dad is rich?

7. Tell me something about 9. (Ced)

He's my German cousin that I think is gay because he kissed Marcus during truth or dare! =X pleasedon'tkillme!

8. What language does 2 speak? (Zoe)

Her own. =D

9. Who is 3 going out with? (Halili)

HA! her camera!

10. How old is number 4? (Hanisah)

thirdteen. next year, fourteen.

11. 5? (Joyce)

13!

12. Who is 6 favourite singer? (Ryan)

HAHAAHAHA Christina Augilera && BRITNEY SPEARS!!! LOLOLOLOLOL SERIOUSLY!

13. 7? (SEAN)

ME! -.- HAHAHA, HE LIKES AUGGIES' SINGING!

14. Is 8 single? (Brendon)

YES. aahaha, zoe this isn't an opportunity. AHAHAHA

15. What is 9 last name? (Ced)

his full name is; Cedric Joseph Heltzburg/HELLBURG. AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. K CED I LOVE YOU!! HAHAHAHAHAH don't kill me

16. Would you consider being in a relationship with 1? (ULUT)

HAHAHAHAH, ULUT! LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL.

17. Which school does 2 go to? (ZOEEE)

Convent High, :)

18. What do you like about 3? (Halili)

She's so "go-w-the-flow"

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tears?

2008-12-11T03:55:00.000-08:00

what does it mean,

when you feel hurt and cry for some reason?

it seems like a petty reason,

but it isn't.

you don't know why you cry,

you just do?

you just cry and cry because you've realized something,

but you don't know what.

you just cry because you know theres something you'll never get,

but what exactly, you don't know.

maybe it's love?

maybe it's adventure?

maybe it's your life compared to others?

maybe it's everything?

maybe it's the fact that the world is unfair?

no matter what you think, it doesn't match.

but in a way it does?

whatever, wasting my time.

UPDATE!!!

2008-12-09T18:58:00.000-08:00

Ulut asked me to update.

and i shall!

see how sweet i am?

HAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHA.

My month of november was very very very crappy. It was as boring to the core so no need for updates. only went out to a few movie outings. and that to, was watch movie, then go! thanks to mama und papa. -.- ISH!

I've got my red hair baybeh! hoho. i know you know, just rubbing it in. =D december is awesome, so far. totaly totaly awesome! i think? LOL. i finally found some stuff to do. =DD -.- and i am soooo over crush. he's so. blehhh. =) hoho, the L life is looking up for meeee. and yannow, i had this super semangat, so i bought my books, and labeled all of them already! HAHAHAA. omg omg omg. lol. I'm sooo in love with twilight, i die die wanna watch. like. DIE DIE wanna watch. ISH. OH YA! i had a nightmare about quarantine+bolt just now. HAHHAHAH scary, yet funny? lol for those who din watch bolt yet, you are yet to understand.

HAHA,

k, so i was penny and we were stuck in the Q(quarantine) building. then i had bolt with me, yes yes he's a dog but he din catch any rabies. he was "protecting me" HOHO! cool or what? then when every1 in the house got infected except me n bolt, we ran to the attic, just like angela vidal and her cameraman did, and instead of rats and stuff, there was rhino! HAHAAHAHAHAHAHHA and he was the rabies spreader. LOLOL then he was rolling towards us in his ball. HOHOH so cute. haha and he was banging onto my leg? haha and i picked him up and said, "AWWWW, so cute" then suddenly we saw that MAIN rabies spreader, you know, that guy/whatever only in undies HAHA and then he saw us and he came running, and that was damn scary, i tried to run, then he grabbed hold of my leg, then bolt did that leg, leg then, SUPERBARK! HOHOHO! then the WHOLE building colapsed, despite it being quarantine and, EVERYONE tt got infected, started running around the city? AHAHAHAH and tt was the scary part, because they were biting and infecting people. OMG HAHAHAH then there were hundreds of infected people, and they came after me n bolt? WTF. then bolt did zoom zoom and ran through all of them and they followed. then we ran till this place where it was like a metal container, then when all of them were inside, bolt closed both doors and then did the heat-ray-stare. HOHO then the thing exploded and all the heads/bodies of those rabies people were raining down! HAHAHAH scary, yet, funny. haha. then SUDDENLY, i saw robert pattinson, you know, the guy tt acted in twilight, yea and i saw him? ahha then the end. HOHOHOHOH -.- gay la my dreams. haha JASMINE KNOWS THE GAY-est! hahahaaa.

MALAS LAYAN YOU!!!

k bye,

i know that you know that i know that you know you love me!

Life

2008-11-30T18:11:00.000-08:00

RED RED RED RED RED. =D

My hair is THIS red.

haha.

Outing canceled, thank dad.

ish.

Mae stayed over yesterday night.

cool.

Very soon I shall make my own campout under the 'stars'

Pea knows what i'm blahbbering about.

Murphys Law;

SMILE because tomorrow will be worse.

Avoiding me?

yes, YOU.

books! i wanna buy books!

4th I'll try alright dear =)

cuz he's just a boy.

yeah, JUST.

ciao babeh!

Outing;

2008-11-26T23:43:00.000-08:00

We've got outing plans people.

4th Dec 2008

Watch Movie/Hang out at CS.

can can?

JUNEY BABY!

2008-11-23T23:45:00.000-08:00

Those not in bold refers to the characteristics in which i am not aware of. =)
JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talk native. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH: Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves travelling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talk native. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally.Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

NOVEMBER: Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.

DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor.

Reunion =)

2008-11-22T23:51:00.000-08:00

Guten Tag =)

The BRCC reunion was a lil off but very fun =). Princsy forgot (GOSH!) so did Michelle Philo. I was seriously ready to chew someone's head off. Caroline was sick. Only about 10 people turned up. Vithya,Mae,Zoe,Mindy,Jasmine,Joy,Charmaine,MichellePhilo,Pritasha and myself. =) Well at least thats who i THINK were there. hehe. Almost everyone brought food. It was very messed up at first. Truthfully, Mae and I thought it would be screwed up, but it was awesome. =) We played Hide&Seek around my housing area. woots.

I found it very patient testing hanging around a particular someone. I seriously wish I had told her STFU when I could, but oh well, whats past is past.

Mae&Zoe&Mindy

stayedover. =)

I told two people straight in their faces,

Told them off through text though.

oh my oh my,

I really hope something goes into their heads,

Before I have to go around saving hearts.

Just now, Zoe, Mindy and I were talking about my dad's job. I don't really find it sad when my dad comes home and says, "my patient died". Never really thought about it. Yeah, someone died, but it's like reading it off the newspaper, "MOTORCYLIST DIES DUE TO ACCIDENT" do we feel sad? ugh, whatever. I'm dwelling on a certain topic that shan't be understood. =)

I find it immature when someone doesn't accept a sincere apology. It obviously shows that that particular person is in the wrong and feels bad about accepting an apology that isn't needed because he/she should be apologizing. OH WELL, we're all humans. Expect imperfection.

I currently feel uneasy because my DARLING (-.-) mom is home.

Sainara.

Auf Vidersen.

Iwannagobackhome=(

D=

2008-11-19T18:40:00.000-08:00

Now I'm of consenting age

To be forgetting you in a cabaret

THIS Colour is because of;

but your just a boy + but your just a boy.

Has nothing to so with the people i USUALLY put in purple. =)

HOHO,

going out to CS in a bit. Oh the pain of trying to allow mommeh to let me go. It's like, tooot.

Recently feeling very downcasted,

I feel like the world has just dumped;

the sins of envy and lust on my shoulder.

Oh gosh,

Please do someone,

Wake me up from this nightmare sooner or later.

I feel like it won't stop hunting me down.

Esh.

I miss you tau.

Naik skolah pun dah different class.

Haihh, Can we buy books together?

But if you dah beli tkper.

My life is like a flower/plant.

Whatever.

Grows into something nice/beautiful.

then dies off in the winter.

Right now, it's winter.

I hope spring comes soon.

I want a tint of hope,

A little ray of light,

To guide me through the days,

To wipe the tears off of my eyes.

And I do have that tint,

I hope they know that they are,

Because if I lose them,

Oh FUCK.

Ask for a penny;

You get a dime ;)

Yesterday was awesomely awesome.

Halili, theZoeKan, MaePea came over.

It was like this;

*dad calls*

Me; Hello? (I was damn sleepy, he called at 10. ugh fking early)

Dad; Alicia, get up I'm coming at 11 and i need you to send the post thing.

Me: uh uh ok.

*gets up, get ready, waitwaitwait till 11.30*

*calls dad*

Me; PAA where are you?

Dad; I can't come now, emergancy case came in, later we go

Me; UH! CAN MAE COME???

Dad; Ya ya ya ok bye.

=,='

UHHHHH I WOKE UP AT TEN JUST TO FIND OUT I WOULD WASTE 1 1/2 hours of sleep??!! *&$@ man.

HOHO, but had lotsa funn

THE ONLY(HAHA)Decent picture;

I LOVE YOU GUYS TAU!

=DD

2008-11-17T23:59:00.000-08:00

LETTER MEME

INSTRUCTIONS:
1. DO THE "LETTER MEME".
2. TAG NO LESS THAN 5 OTHER PEOPLE.
3. THEN COPY THE "HOW-TO" LETTER MEME, AND FINISH YOUR JOURNAL ENTRY.

Here:

Dear Nis (HAHA),

I dont really know how to tell you this but the mafia wants you. I think I realized it when you put cuffs on me, with Geogre bush and his wife and I saw you sit on The crazy monk. I'm sure you're middle class enough to understand that we're cousins. I'm returning the couch cusions to you, but I'll keep your photo as a memory. You should also know that I always will remember our friendship.

With Ease

Alicia.
- -

Template:
Dear (the last person who text messaged you):
I don't really know how to tell you this, but (1). I think I realized it (2) (3) and I saw you (4) (5). I'm sure you're (6) enough to understand (7). I'm returning (8) to you, but I'll keep (9) as a memory. You should also know that I (10) (11).
___12___,
(Your name)

- -

1. WHAT'S THE COLOR OF YOUR SHIRT?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister

2. WHICH IS YOUR BIRTH MONTH?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April-When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes

3. WHICH FOOD DO YOU PREFER?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kebabs - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife

4. WHAT'S THE COLOR OF YOUR SOCKS?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot- Sit on
Other - Drive out

5. WHAT'S THE COLOR OF YOUR UNDERWEAR?
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Black- My best friend
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy statue
Other - The crazy monk

6. WHAT DO YOU PREFER TO WATCH ON TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - High
House - Scarred
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed

7. YOUR MOOD RIGHT NOW?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa Doesn't Exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this.
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks

8. WHAT'S THE COLOR OF YOUR WALLS IN YOUR BEDROOM?
Yellow - Your love letters
White - Your ring
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service

9. THE FIRST LETTER OF YOUR FIRST NAME?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of your blood-sample
K/L - Your best friend
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David's tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college

10. THE LAST LETTER IN YOUR LAST NAME?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked

11. WHAT DO YOU PREFER TO DRINK?
Water- Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics

12. TO WHICH COUNTRY WOULD YOU PREFER TO GO ON A VACATION?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - Boo-hoo now
France - In pain
Other - Greetings to your freaky family

Have fun!

YOZ!

2008-11-17T20:21:00.000-08:00

No, no I am not at all referring to En. Yos my OH-SO-DEARLY-MISSED middle school Science teacher. haha. I've been using my gut feeling alot these days. No longer can the facts sort things out. Simply because all the facts change every time. I find it overly irritating, don't you? To trust that the facts would help out, and in the end you find yourself in deeper shit due to your outdated facts. Oh my, very very irritating indeed.

My weekend was very energy using. Seriously, Saturday was an awesome day. Well, sparingly. I must indeed point out that i shall NEVER go out unless we plan everything properly. Well, with two groups that is. The petty conflicts are very time wasting, and they just make you lose your mood. Uh, regret. But OH WELL. What's past is past ;) But i can't shake the heartbreak. Oh yes, the heartbreak. I don't know why i hold on to you. There are others too, yet, why did i fall for you? Oh my, I find this a retorical question. I shan't answer nor do i know how to.

imissmybabyboo.

Oh so much. I'm just dying thinking of how he is doing =(. Do get better soon baby. And I shall see you once more. I really do miss him lots. Uhhh, thinking about him just makes me wanna see him even more. But, mommeh wants me to do chores, daddeh says he's seen too much of me (-.-"!!!) and driver is OH-SO blur. GOSH, do i miss Terengganu. Although I do not want to go back into a government hospital again. The place is terrible. Well, I have to give them SOME props, because I AM alive. They were fast, efficient, but;

THEY HAVE NO IDEA HOW TO POKE A NEEDLE WITHOUT MAKING ME CRY.

I found it very troublesome. The didn't even put that splint thing so that my hand is straight?!?! OH DEAR, i shall not reminisce.

I find love cliche' don't you? The though of someone being your soulmate and forever, being in love, yadayadayada. Gosh, please do wake me up from this fantasy. The heartbreak is what hits you hard. I mean, please take a look around, we're bloody humans for crying out loud, we're bound to make mistakes. No one is perfect. And even if you DO find your soulmate, you might not split up but within your relationship period, OBVIOUSLY there would be fights. Now, don't tell me there won't. TRUST me, i know.

Junior High/High School is very underestimated.

What they show in movies about the bitching and wannabe's are an underestimate of high school life. uh, i bet those of us Junior High Students already know the pain. And now a new chapter of an old problem comes up; "Boys and their eyes".

I feel very irritated when guys include the reason "...because your pretty" in the first 5 reasons why they like you. And i feel like making them lose their balls when they include the reason of "...your body". -.-' I find them very statistic. Boys, that is. In Middle School having a girlfriend is WHOA. In Junior High, having a girlfriend is normal, but having a hot one is "yummy". -.-' And in High School, losing your virginity is, awesome. OH PLEASE DO GROW UP. There is obviously more to life than what your friends think. But whatever, I forgot how typical people tend to be.

I have taken the initiative to be inspired by miss Zoe Kan by putting up pictures of our parents and us in the past. OH! Vintage fashion was very fabulous. Those miniskirts/dresses are very pretty. OOH! indeed indeed. Oh well, maybe in the next post I shall put them up. =)

but your just a boy,

you don't understand,

how it feels to love a girl.

Your reputation is one thing,

My image is another,

I don't take being counted cheap as a joke.

Next time you wanna play with someone's feelings,

Do pick a cheap bitch that'll do anything for a boy.

I've had enough of your jokes,

I ain't gonna be some toy for you.

Hey, jerk, how bout you fuck yourself for a change?

but your just a boy...

And you, please don't talk to me,

just because you wanna charm her,

because as i have said before,

"once fixed, never will be un-fixed"

because hope is one thing,

but the game your playing needs two sides.

I seriously do need a break from this boy stuff.

How did i get hooked in the first place.

Dear god.

please eh,

2008-11-17T01:12:00.000-08:00

"Without forgetting this feeling,

that I send now to the important person,

who takes the trouble to laugh,

and takes the trouble to support,

and takes the trouble to encourage always."

not always.

As nis says, "siapa makan cili terasa pedasnya"

because really, why does this have to start again?

like, seriously.

2008-11-16T19:25:00.000-08:00

have you ever wondered why, when things do get better, they just fall apart when really needed?

because losing someone/something once, obviously means you can lose it again.

and when we try our best to keep it there, it just flutters away ever so silently.

you don't care how it hurts

No matter how hard we try, it just goes. Maybe it's fate?

Are they just fair weather friends?

do they really love you?

If you get admitted into hospital, who would visit you?

If you skinned your knee who would shout at you for being an idiot but help you up anyways?

If you cried, who would wait there until you stop just to comfort you?

what the hell for? they won't show their gratitude anyways.

Doesn't mean you can't show you care?

Because no one really knows what they got till it's gone.

Because when they do fade away, and the lose you, then they notice.

ignorance is bliss...

But when it fades away, you'll just be very empty.

And then you realize, you need them,

Then when you have them again,

We celebrate the good times,

Then we forget how much we love them,

Because we've planted it in so deep.

Then they fade....

and it starts all over.

Really, if i could i just want everything to clear out.

I wanna sort out the facts,

but why the fcuk do they change every single time?

i miss 07'

i swear,

i just wanna go back and let it repeat,

over and over and over again,

i went the extra mile,

and so did everyone,

didn't it feel so good?

byebye.

i currently have nothing else to say.

but your just a boy...

Again.

2008-11-16T00:15:00.000-08:00

Just because i fall in and out of love easily doesn't mean you can take me for granted.

If i were a boy,

I think i would understand,

How it feels to love a girl,

I swear I'd be a better man.

I'd listen to her,

Cuz i know how it hurts,

When you lose the one you wanted,

Cuz he's taking you for granted,

And everything you have got destroyed.

but i guess they're just boys,

they don't understand,

how to it feels to love a girl,

someday they'll wish they were better men.

they don't listen to her,

they don't care how it hurts,

until they lose the one they wanted,

cuz they're taking her for granted,

and everything they have got destroyed.

but your just a boy...

yeah, now and till high school is over.

"why would a woman want a boy in her life now and get her heart broken later when she can wait till later and get a man with no broken hearts on the way?"-E

yeah. why?

no hard feelings guys, not like we were ever together right?

2008-11-15T23:14:00.000-08:00

ViThYa says: (3:12:35 PM)

i like someone

AliciaLY | VLV says: (3:12:54 PM)

WHOA

AliciaLY | VLV says: (3:12:55 PM)

WHO?

AliciaLY | VLV says: (3:12:56 PM)

HAHAHAHA

ViThYa says: (3:13:02 PM)

lol

ViThYa says: (3:13:05 PM)

i dunno

AliciaLY | VLV says: (3:13:08 PM)

=,='

AliciaLY | VLV says: (3:13:11 PM)

my foot?

ViThYa says: (3:13:17 PM)

i think

ViThYa says: (3:13:32 PM)

i mean he's cute and all but he's a jerk

HAHHAHHA, my fooot. awesome way to start my day. =D

tooodlesss

RINDU.

2008-11-15T05:53:00.001-08:00

aiyah, i miss mae la. that stupid pea head had to go for St. John camp. pfffft.

aiyah. bye la.

CS

2008-11-15T04:25:00.000-08:00

=D.

went to CS today with mindy.

AWESOME SHIT.

hahaha, the plan was to watch movie w/ Mr.C but tak jadi.

Smexi was mesmorized by my cleavage. PERV.

HAHAHHA.

too lazy to update about everyth la.

had fun, the end.

now i'm sure, it's more than a like, but still no where near love.

NEW EMAIL =D

2008-11-13T18:45:00.002-08:00

UPDATEE;

missalicialy@hotmail.com

ADD ADD ADD =D

a MUCH MUCH less embarrassing email =D.

haircut.

2008-11-13T09:26:00.000-08:00

ignore the FKed up face. it's 1 and i cut my hair few hours ago due to depression. not THAT much but noticable difference. gay. anyways it'll grow back in a few days. =)

heartbreak.

2008-11-13T06:24:00.000-08:00

heartbreak.

but i love you lots, so i ignore my feelings.

yet,

for the first time,

although I want to help,

although my mind says help,

my heart tells me to not bother.

to a certain point,

being nice to everyone,

regardless of how i feel,

just isn't worth it when others just don't see my sacrifice.

It's not you,

it's the other people,

sorry you got affected.

because number one,

your sweet.

but number one,

you seem as if you don't care.

because number two,

your so fun to be with.

but number two,

your never what you say you are.

because number three,

i'm crazy about you.

but number three,

no one has ever been oh so crazy for me.

but the bottom line i guess is,

"who would want to wait for a girl like you"

and i know my friends aren't gonna bother,

although I always bother,

I'm too nice,

I've made too many fair weather friends,

I don't know who isn't.

that somebodehhh

2008-11-12T04:23:00.000-08:00

your on my mind dude,

always.

you still owe me a hug&&kiss,

Today was fairly interesting, i mean, who would rate, seeing a monkey falling into a trashcan and tipping it over and this huge rat running out, causing people going into cardiac arrest, tripping over, loosing their voice and so on, down? HAHA. joke.

Eda said I'm pretty. WHOA. She also says having big butts cause us to not being able to ride using our seatbone. WHOA. And also that BBs (not Boys Brigade =,=') and riding do not go. WHOAAAA. HAHAHAH, this was a first episode on, "wise words from Eda Wong". HAHA. i really didn't know all this. a-MAE-zing. Credits to miss MUTCY. So this means, being not-so-curvy isn't a big deal. whooo! =,='

been getting up late lately. my holiday resolution of waking up at 6 to go for jogs seem to only have taken a first attempt and is currently on pause. OHMYGOSHY. I feel fat. I know people will slap me if i say this because i'm on the verge of being underweight. whatever. I put on weight, but it's at my tummy. wtsex? I feel pregnant. HAHA, serious. I have to do more situps and jogs. ohdeardearflabjelly. I have to find the on-active button in me somewhere. maybe it's under all these fats. ohgay.

i went to meet SSI-ians today. well, some. Jasmine&co. were there. SOMEBODY MADE ME WALK IN THE RAIN. seriously. I was as INNOCENT as ever, walking into SSI to go through the back gate, and this tudunger was like,

"GIRL, why you wearing like that"

(i swear, i was wearing a black tank top&jeans, can't get more innocent alright?) and i put on my english/american accent,

" oh sorry, i didn't realize i broke the dress code. would you mind if i pass through the school to get to the other entrance, it IS raining"

and ohmyjellybean, you know what she did? her mouth was like gawping, i guess cuz i look indian/malay/dark-asian and have this slang. she was SO OBVIOUSLY impressed+jealous (not self praising but, seriously) And she was so obviously lost for words, she said TRYING to put on a slang =,=!!

"no, no use that way (points to the road)"

WTF, it was RAINING, and she wanted me to walk in the open??? Fk that btch. but whatever. i gave her a look and i walked off. and i felt so glamorous walking in the rain. HAHA i have no idea why but i just did. anyways, i got to the back entrance, and jasmine was waving. haha. she's so adorable. anyways when everyone got out. all the Malay girls gave me tak puas hati looks, AS USUAL. LJ was cute. haha we was trying to be taller than me. LOL. Big, i mean, TALL dreams kid. :P haha, i saw carolkuti and soon she stole my phone to call her beloved. OH PLEASE, I need a break from whatever they were talking about. Took a picture w/ mr. CLJ, i gave him the opportunity to be tall-er. hehe. awesome day. oh yes, i sent carol home.

I felt like a total stranger at pasar. Everyone was in, what seemed to be PJ's or aphek shorts or whatev. and i was in jeans, a very fashionable grey&hotpink&limegreen shirt with my aviator sunnies, in pumps and hooped ear-rings. but it wasn't like i dressed like this FOR the pasar. I was OTW home from checking out property with daddeh. might soon move to Taman Polo in Leisure Farm. Daddy is gonna build a 18,000 square feet, one-storey bungalow. AWESOME. and i can cycle to the Equestrian Center. WHOOOOOO. But whatever, all these pasar people were whistling. TOOOOOOT. i would slap them if i could. no class, no dignity guys. CHEAP I SAY, CHEAP! haha. And all these minahs in their weird tight tight clothes& dresses were like, gawping =,='. I am NEVER going to the pasar again. NEVER. giant, maybe.wetmarkets, NEVER.

BRCC reunion is confirmed. 22nd Nov, my place, people invited SHOULD know who they are. bring your food and stuff. ILY guys!

Oh yes, This Saturday who is free? Daddy gave green light to go out and watch the coffin =D but only in JB. CS. can? can? can? PLEASEEEEEEEE. parent-less.

alrighty guys. update done. =D

youknowyouloveme

think,

2008-11-07T20:57:00.000-08:00

you've somehow charmed me,

people have warned me about you,

i am still doubting you.

yet somehow,

you cross my mind a few times,

i flirt around with you,

and you do to with me,

you said you liked me,

i said maybe sooner or later the factors would permit.

i'll be seeing you soon,

oh gosh i can't wait.

when you stopped texting me,

i didn't really care,

now i'm wondering,

why why why?

do i like you?

or is it just another mixed emotion.

i feel a tinge of guilt everytime i tell myself i'm falling for someone else,

your nice, sweet, not bad looking, and your personality is charming,

i tell myself your no good for me,

but things prove otherwise,

if your serious about me,

i'll be serious about you too.

but like i said,

"i'll only date you when you _____"

haha,

till then,

ILikeY.

upcoming parties and shayt.

2008-11-05T00:31:00.000-08:00

hehe. nissy's friend Esha very nice uh. =DD huhu nice nice person. hope to have many many more convys with her.

days have been boring seriously. blehh. today went for extra class. sat with fara. haha nis kept complaining to me about GWE. well well, chill babe.

Ok so i guess this is still the start of the hols eh. wooot. =DD ok so whats up and on afterr my comp. well, Training training and more training. =DDD also ALOT of parties, lunchens, dinner stuff. OH GAY. lol most i'm looking forward to is BRCC reunion man. OOH. awesome =DD.

The BRCC reunion arrangements are as followed:

Date; 22nd November 2008.

Time; BRCC actors-(12pm- 6pm)

invited people- (3pm-6pm)

the actors, we are going to do some practice sessions and a video shoot. =DD.

Place; 52, Jln Suria Muafakat 2, Taman Suria Muafakat, 80350, JB, Johor, Malaysia.

All actors MUST come. if you don't, I'll drag your asses there.

RSVP; By the 18th Nov 2008. it is important you RSVP.

Contact me by email/MSN/call/sms. if you don't hv my number, ask arnd.

This is a potluck, so, bring food, drinks, whatever. And bring it in bulk. HOHO. there'll be about erk, 25++ of us. and vithya, bring brownies. A MUST. hehehe.

Those who come empty handed, will be thrown out.

Actors; if you don't bring anything, I'll make you wash dishes and clean my room(this applies to anyone). HAHA. MAE KNOWS THE PAIN.hehe. and i am serious. those who had to use some stuff from home or borrow, please do bring it along. I can only supply what I am meant to supply. =D any questions, ask me or MAEPEA. huhu.

Invited folks; if you are invited. AWESOME. because i want this to be the biggest event of the year. and you ppl attending will make it happen yo! I'll jot down list of invitees in the upcoming posts. If your name ain't in it, well, i either forgot, OR you ain't invited.

Non invited folks: don't bother turning up. you will be locked out/escorted out by security. HOHO.

erhps, yeah thats it. WAKAKA. anything else that i left out will be updated. keep checking back for more updates.

right, now that's settled we shall move on to other stuff. Like, errr. HAHA idk. posted about BRCC i guess.

fine then buy buy peoplessss.

cheerio!